[ PARK SOOJUNG ]
Would you still love me no matter
how broken I am on the inside?
It was almost as if my lungs were ready to give up on me. As the days began to pass, my lungs were gasping for air, clenching every now and then. It was like I was slowly dying, and I was aware of it. But I still.. don't know, who he is, how close he is to me. I wish I did.
But as I still try to figure things out, it only results in my immune system to decline, my whole body getting weaker and weaker whenever the sun would set. But if only I knew, if only I knew the source, I can finally let go happily.
"Soojung-ah, are you sure you're okay? Even though today's the last day of the camping trip, we have a lot of activities to do.. and you look scarily pale, do you wanna sit out for the day?"
I look up at Jungkook, who places his head on my forehead. I purse my lips into a line, snuggling closer into my sleeping bag as Taehyung enters into the tent after a washroom break. He bends over to look at me, and he gasps.
"Soojung, you look.. like a ghost. I think you should sit out."
"I'll be fine, it's the last day and I don't want to just sit out on all the activities."
"I'd rather have you sit out and be okay than for you to participate in the activities then suddenly fall to your death and we have to bring you to the hospital."
"I'll be fine, I'll just take some painkillers."
"Don't. The last time I looked exactly like you, I almost died, because of her."
Jungkook grabs his things as he pats my head. I groan, clenching my chest as he gives me a worried look before heading to the washroom for his own washroom break. Taehyung plops himself right beside me, placing his head on my forehead.
"You're burning up. I suggest you sit out."
"Didn't I just say that I'm going to take painkillers?"
"Why are you being so stubborn? I've been there, done that, and I don't want to do it again."
"Why do you care about me so suddenly? Last time I checked, you didn't care about me at all."
He falls silent, and he mumbles something underneath his breath. I raise an eyebrow questioningly, before opening one eye to look at him. He glances at me, and it was almost as if his eyes were starting to tear up.
"I don't want to lose you, especially since I've grown this attachment to you in just a few days, especially since we're share the same exact disease.. and knowing how I've already gone through this before you did, I don't want you getting hurt."
"You're really weird."
"I'm serious. Do you want to die? By the way you look right now, I know that your lungs are failing, and the last thing I want to happen to you is for you to literally fall dead while we're doing an activity."
And all it took was for me to burst out into tears. He pulls me into a hug, while I wrap my arms around his neck. He rubs my back soothingly, and before I knew it, I could feel a few tears fall onto my shoulder.
"I wish I didn't have this stupid disease. I wish I didn't have to get hurt in the end. I wish I didn't have these fucked up feelings for someone I don't even fucking know but is literally breathing right now on this planet. He's probably even on this camping trip for fucks sake, while I'm over here dying, literally."
He hugs me tightly, and I bit my lip as it began to quiver. I snuggle into his neck as we sat there, in silence, just hugging each other with the same exact thoughts flooding our minds. Two minds, combined into one, with the same exact feelings, the same exact experiences.. but both hearts belonged to someone else.
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