When I open up the picture message I notice my teddy bear along with my favorite movie. I smile at the thought of Mike doing something so corny and unlike him. He has no idea what just this little thing means to me.
My eyes glide over to the hand written note and it takes me a moment to realize that it's Mike's handwritting and at the very top it has Addison with a heart written at the top. My heart flutters and I look back up at Mike to give him a grin before I start to read the note.
I want you to know that this is only one out of the many notes I have of you. I can express myself onto a piece of paper than I can do in person, espically when I am around you. I get tongue tied a lot and find myself switching from thought to thought. I have never once thought I would fall so hard for someone so quick and so soon as I did. Let alone with someone across the United States. I have fit and changed my whole schedule around yours so I can talk to you more and when I know you can. I have had little if any sleep since I have met you. I am not complaning as long as I get to see your face before I fall asleep. I shouldn't even be complaining about that since you roam my dreams to begin with. My thoughts and dreams have always surrounded you and you have always consumed me. No matter the situation at hand you were always my Addi and I was always your Mike. I have had so many people call me crazy and insane because I am in love with someone whom I have never met or physically been around. I am completely sane though and I only laugh at what others have to say now. When I look at you nothing ever matters anymore and I feel truly blessed to be with you. I know I have been nothing but a complete asshole and non caring bastard, but it is far from that. I am one lucky man to have you and I want to show you that Addison. I want to give you the world one day and I plan to. No matter how long it takes me and how many obstacles stand in my way, I won't go down without a fight. I have always pictured us laying out in my bedroom, me playing FIFA as you have your arms wrapped around me, giving me corny mexican jokes into my ear to make me mess up at the very end. I have pictured your blush and the way you would giggle when I would throw my controller to make you pay for making me lose. I have grown to love everything about you and I am growing to love all your tough and imperfections. I want to grow with you as a person and learn along with you as life gives us hard challenges. I have never met someone with a connection like we had from the very beginning and I wouldn't trade it for all of the tacos in the world.
You're my Addison and I love you more than anything.
When I am done reading the note, I re read it once more to make sure I didn't miss anything but mostly just to relive the best thing that has ever been said to me. I know I have a tear rolling down my face but I am too busy reading the perfect note I have ever been given.
I laugh at the ironicness when he mentions FIFA and think back to my very first thoughts about him. I was going to see Tyler and I imagined Mike and Vic playing soccer in the field as I sat back and watched. I can now feel his lips press against mine as the thought is now complete.
Everything in this note has made it very clear to me and where I stand. I sit back and wipe away at my tear stained face as I come into realization. I have known this from the very beginning, that no matter what, I love him too.
"Addi?" He speaks and has a worried look on his face.
"What?" I start to panic when I stare at his facial expression.
"Nothing. I just called your name a few times." He smiles and I smile back knowing that he is trying to get me to talk but I'm not giving in just yet.
"Oh. I'm sorry. I really do loves this note." I say and mean it. I skim over the note again and again, thinking about how his exact thoughts are mine. We both know we have a rare connection that most people will never get to experience.
"I'm glad you love it." He tries to budge me into talking but I smile at him and change the topic.
"So, when are you getting your plane ticket?" He looks slightly pained but answers me anyways
"Soon as I end this chat with you. Unless you want me to do it now."
"You can wait, I'm just in shock you're actually flying out to see me..." I feel a bit uneasy thinking about all of this and what is going to happen. I get released from school on the 28th and have up until the 10th of March till school starts back up. I wonder how long he will be staying and where would he be at during his time here. I don't know if us being together in person will change our relationship but I only hope and pray it makes us stronger.
I have so many thoughts flooding through my mind that my stomach is starting to knot and I feel a lump forming into my throat. I can feel my cheeks heating at all of my unanswered thoughts and I can see Mike becoming the same way.
"I'm a ball of emotions." I laugh softly.
"Same here." He sighs.
When I look down at my phone the clock reads 11:43 and I am having the worst anxiety attack. Mike and I ended up ending our call so we could think about things and let it all sink in. I have only had one thought playing into my head over and over when he told me he was going to fly out here. I know I will have to do it sooner or later and since I am already a ball of emotions, I figure now would be a good time.
*Can you come to my room?*
When I see my bedroom door open quickly with wild eyes staring at me, I almost want to take back my text message.
"Whats wrong?" She breaths.
"Sit." I say and scoot over to make room for her.
She sits down and I can tell she is uncomfortable by the way she is being so distant towards me.
"You aren't pregnant are you?"
"No, mom." I laugh and look down at my hands.
"I'm not even sexually active." I say and laugh even more as she scoots closer and lets out a deep breath.
"Okay, good." She wipes her eyes and snaps her head to me,
"You aren't doing drugs, are you?"
"No, mom." I snap, "Just listen to me."
"Okay, fine. I can handle this now." She laughs and I feel more at easy.
"I really don't know how to say or start this off." I have a lump forming again and I want to hide in my corner.
"Just do it, Addison." She pushes me and I take a deep breath.
"Theres this guy." I smile and I can feel my heart swelling at the mentioning of him.
"Aw, that's good sweetie." She beams.
"Who lives in California." I mumble and gauge her reaction.
"Okay so?" She's still beaming and she just isn't catching on to this.
"This guy, whom lives in California..." I look off and debate on telling her anymore, but I picture those big brown piercing eyes staring at me.
"I'm in love with him." I breathe.
"Do what?" She says and runs her fingers into her hair.
"I am." I say and she looks like she doesn't believe me.
I am on the verge of tears and throwing up all at the same time. I know my mom won't find this to be pleasant or even realistic. She probably won't understand my situation and probably agree with almost eveyone else, we are crazy being in love.
I know what I feel and I will stand up for it.
And at that moment, I feel a presence near me.
That he is here too.
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When Addison gets caught up in guys through out her high school year, will she be able to find out who she truly is after this? Will someone finally make a break through and get her to see what life really is about? Or will she take life by the horn...