Namjoon lay on his bed, dried streaks of tears were trailed to his ears as he watched the ceiling.
His thoughts going back and forth to the one person he was so crazy about, Seokjin. He couldn't believe he had not seen or heard his voice in 3 days, he missed him so much. But what could he do? He was trying to obey Jin's wishes of letting him be, but it was so hard. Harder than he had thought it would be. His heart was shattered, his head was on fire, his body shook, and he felt like air was constantly sucked from his lungs. He was going to die, die from being away from Jin.
This had never happened to him, at least not like this. It was usually mere crushes. He always had crushes, bad crushes, but they always ended when he had sex with the person. That was how his crushes were in the past.
Yes, before he ended up sleeping with them, he'd do crazy stuff like befriend their partner to know what they liked, or steal stuff from their lockers like hankys, half eaten food, or stalk them to places. It was crazy, but not like this one.
Now, he was going insane. He wanted to jump off a skyscraper. He'd have to endure not rushing over to Jin's house and kissing him senseless or hugging him so tight or just staring at him but Jin hated him and that was what killed him the most.
Namjoon didn't look or answer who had called him. He knew who it was but he also knew that person could not help his present state, so what was the need in responding.
"Do you want to eat something?" Jimin asked, taking a sit on the bed next to Namjoon.
Jimin received no response.
"Joonie," He reached to touch Namjoon but Namjoon scooted away. Jimin sighed, "You have to eat something."
Namjoon turned to his side, backing Jimin.
"You haven't eaten in 3 days, please," Jimin begged softly. "I don't want you to get sick."
"I'm not hungry," Namjoon said with a hoarse voice.
"No, you are. You have to put something in your stomach. You're going to get-"
"Can you leave?"
"No, I cannot just watch you kill yourself over someone that doesn't care about you. He hates you, and sees you as a freak and you have to see that."
"What did you just say to me?" Namjoon asked slowly turning to look at Jimin.
Jimin looked away, not saying anything.
"Say it again!"
"No, no, hyung, tell me! What right do you have to rub it in my face that I cannot be loved!? That I always fall in love with people that are too good for me!? With people that hate me so much! To remind me that I'm nothing but a sick freak! A psycho! A stalker!! I cannot stop loving, Jin, okay!? I love him so much that it hurts my heart and the more I try to pull away from him, the more deeply I fall for him! I can't help it! I just can't! And you would never understand me because you always have what you want! You're so good looking and everything happens your way-"
"Yes, hyung! All the women that come here looking for you, the ones you're always texting and smiling over, the ones you bring back here, the constant happy expression! Just because you have it easy, doesn't mean you should make me feel so foolish for being in love."
"I'm sorry for making you feel this way, I really am."
"Forget it," Namjoon got up from the bed and wore his slippers.
"Please, let's eat something."
"Eat alone. I'm going out," Namjoon said and walked out.
"Why don't we just switch rooms," Namjoon said walking into his room and finding Jimin looking out through the window. "You spend so much time in mine."
Jimin turned to look at him, closing the curtains and moving to the bed.
"I just find it comforting."
Namjoon shrug and started to take off his shirt.
"Where did you go to?" Jimin asked.
"I went to relax my mind," Namjoon answered, sitting on the bed next to Jimin.
Jimin gave him a look.
Namjoon shook his head and gave a small smile. "No, I didn't go to his house. He doesn't want to see me."
Jimin sighed and wrapped his arms around Namjoon's bare body, pulling him into a hug.
"I'm sorry, Joonie. I shouldn't have said that earlier."
"It's okay. You were right. It's just hard for me to accept it, sometimes."
"I'm so sorry you have to go through this pain. I'm so sorry."
"There's nothing you can do about it, hyung. I'll be fine."
"Please, be," Jimin said and kissed him on the head. "I love you... so much and I don't want you to keep hurting."
"I'll be fine. Don't worry about me," Namjoon said and started to pull away.
Jimin pulled away and looked at him. "Do you wanna eat now?"
Namjoon nodded. "Yeah."
Jimin smiled, "Okay. I'll go dish out your food."
Namjoon nodded and flashed him a smile. "Thank you, hyung."
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Crazy, Stupid ; 2seok ✓Fanfiction
❝Look what you made me do, baby.❞ ★★★ If Jin could go back in time, he would unmake every stupid mistake he made, and save himself the future hurt and pain. But would that still be enough? Copyright © 2018 by @kpfics