I Sold My Virginity

Mother

"He said I was gonna die?" She laughed. "I'm not gonna die" she smiled. "I'm invincible"

She's being nice to me right now. I've been here for a few hours helping her clean and cook. She looks good, she's on her feet a lot more.

My friend John has been checking on her every once in a while. I'll have to thank him, he's always been sweet to me. He's my only friend.

"He's hiding something, mom" I admit. "I know he is, I just... can't put it together"

"Stop all that talking and come get some food" she grabbed a plate and started piling it with food.

"Mom I really think you should listen to me" I stood up and grabbed a plate. "He's so secretive and it scares me"

"Valentina!"

"No mom I'm really worried, why do you think he wanted me to live with me?"

"So he could have sex with you" she said that like I was dumb.

"That's not what I mean, I think he's planning something" I looked at her.

"He might be planning to marry you, Valentina!" She shouted. "Other than that, I don't care about your conspiracy theories. I'm trying to eat, Joshua is not trying to hurt you or me, so shut up about it" she turned back to her plate and sat at the table saying her prayers then starting to eat.

I stood there watching her eat her nasty food. She can't even cook good. She made chicken, macaroni and cheese, and collared greens. I don't even want it.

"Take your food and leave, I have a guest coming"

"Who?" I asked as I turned around and started putting food on my plate.

"None of your business" she said. It's probably that doctor she was tell me about.

When I was done I wrapped my food in foil and walked to the front door. "Bye I love you" I said to her.

"Love you too" she said. Wow she actually said it this time. "Oh have you been taking your medicine?" She shouted after me.

Shit. I forgot about taking one today. I need to do that as soon as I get home. "Yes I have"

"Make sure your taking it everyday, Valentina. We don't want an accident like last time"

"I know" I yelled back and closed the door. I don't want to think about that right now. It was a scary time.

I walk to the car and Nate opens he door for me. He gets in the drivers seat and starts driving.

"Nate can I ask you something?" I say.

"Yes Miss Valentina?"

"Has Joshua ever done anything... bad?"

"How bad, Miss Valentina?"

"I don't know, anything life changing?"

He was quiet for a few seconds until he answered slowly. "No Miss Valentina, you are very safe here. You have nothing to be worried about"

I trust Nate, i have since I first met him. He's married, he has a kid and seems very reliable. "Okay" I sigh.

Feeling a little better, we pull up to the house and Nate let's me out. It's very late, around midnight. Joshua might be sleeping.

I walk in the house and put the food I got from my mothers in the fridge. Then I head upstairs to awake the beast.

I slowly open the door and the lights are on. I hear the shower running, it stopped as soon as I took off my shoes.

"You're back" a deep voice boomed behind me.

"Yea" I say as I grab my suitcase and look for my medicine.

"How was everything with your mother?"

"Fine. She looks good"

"Good" I look up at him and he's dripping wet, with a towel hung low on his body.

I grab my water bottle and take a big gulp, swallowing the pill. "I'm gonna take a shower" I said and walked past him into the bathroom.

"Valentina" he grabbed my arm. "I don't want us to fight, it's foolish"

"You're right, and I'm sorry for what I said earlier" I apologized.

"Don't be sorry, you were right, I am a dick and I'm sorry. You're mothers not going to die, she's going to be fine"

"Thank you Joshua" I said and scurried to take my shower. I closed the door and turned on the water.

He doesn't scare me, he just worries me. I feel like I can't trust him because he's so secretive, and my mother ignores how I feel. Maybe I'm just in over my head, worrying about this I don't need to worry about.

I hope he doesn't want to marry me. I don't want to be married, all that's too it is yelling and fighting and having kids then getting divorced.

After my shower I checked to see if Joshua was asleep but he was up and he was reading my book. I grabbed my lotion off the dresser and sat on the bed, rubbing it into my body. "Is it good?" I asked him.

"Yea, but I don't get it" he started. "How can a stripper find love and keep her job?" He bit his nails.

"That's what she's trying to figure out" i chuckled.

"Hmm" he nodded and closed the book.

I put the top on my lotion and placed it back on the dresser.

"I'm sorry, Valentina" I feel the warmth of a breath tickle my neck, and warm hands travel down my arms. I didn't realize he had gotten out of the bed.

I turn around and I'm face to face with Joshua. He's so close to me I could kiss him. His minty breath is so inviting, his chiseled chest is so comforting.

"I-i already told you it's okay" I stuttered. Him being this close and this sexy is making me nervous in ways I don't think I should explain.

"I feel as if it's not. I want things to calm down between us, Valentina. I don't want to get a hard head with you"

I shyly looked away from him. "I understand, Joshua" I bit my lip.

He lifted my chin, with his warm fingers and placed his warm lips on mine. I opened my mouth slightly to let his tongue slide in, touching mine.

This is the first I've been this close to him. This is the first I've kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him.

I don't even know why I was mad at him in the first place. I feel so safe in his arms, his security for just one second will keep me safe for a life time.

I hope that he knows this. That I care about him, way more than I thought I would, that I not only like this. But I like him.