-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-Ellies P.O.V-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=
Shawn hugged me into his chest, i couldn't help but shake, i was mentally beating myself up because i was thinking about the complete taboo that is now the past,
a tear fell down onto the thin white cotton of his shirt,
he must have been aware of my shaking and then felt the tear that had soaked gently through turning his tee shirt a light grey colour,
he pulled me to arms length and i couldn't help but break down, the past came flooding back,
the crash,
i shivered at the thought,
the hospital,
my chest tightened,
the church,
my eyes throbbed,
the new beginning,
i gathered my thoughts and tried to stop crying,
though it was impossible
i can forget almost anything,
just not the thing i wished i could erase forever,
right then, my heart skipped a beat,
Meanwhile shawn had muttered a kind "woah!"
shawn grabbed me and pulled me into a hug, he wrapped his arms around the back of my head and stroked my hair,
"Shhh its okay" he said comforting me, i felt so safe, here, now, nothing could be better, the past happened, theres no denying that, but there is hope, and i cant let my past get in the way of my future, thats here, in canada, making youtube videos of singing and a couple challenges and falling in love and being happy, i suddenly remembered what was written on the back of my hand,
Note to self: rub off whats on the back of my hand,
I had forgotten my situation but it was soon back, shawn Mendes was hugging me and comforting me about my past, WAIT! I havent told him about my past, he probably thinks im crazy,
I realised i was still shaking
"Shh im here" he states calmly, god, why is he so
Urgh!
Thats the only thing i can use to describe him,
Urgh
Its just an inner feeling that i can seem to get rid of, every time he speaks his voice just clears my head, i can remember,
I let out a breath i didnt even know i was holding,
We hugged for about ten minutes and all my tears and worries had gone, suddenly it struck me...
Shit, CLASS!?!?!
Im not one to be late, or rude, or naughty....
Shawn pulled away and looked me in the eyes, he lightly brushed his thumb underneath my eyes to make sure all my tears had dried,
"I thought we were supposed to be in class?" I asked and looked around innocently,
I looked up at shawn to feel a large amount of sympathy escape from a large exhale he made
"No, today we've got the day to ourselves to show you around the school he said as he placed a small kiss on my cheek, i looked away to avoid him seeing my horrendously crimson cheeks,
"Oh good" i said relived but i think he saw me blush, damn.
"Hey, you dont have to tell me whats wrong, just tell me if it was the kiss?" He asked worried,
How could he possibly think it was the kiss???
He was looking down at me waiting for a reply,
"No! The kiss was amazing, ive dreamed abou-" that last bit slipped out,
He was thinking, for a while actually, i got worried, he smiled but without looking at me,
Whatever he was thinking about must have been a happy memory or a girl, most likely a girl, one thats not weird and mentally deformed like me....
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------This is basically the last chapter in Ellies pov... Dont hate cos its late!!
Can i have one comment... Before i update again... Just to see if anybody is actally interested in this story... I dunno
Lots of love from Ellebears xxxxx
