Life's not the same without you. I miss you. I miss you so much but I know I won't get to see you for some time. I don't know if there's an afterlife but if there is save me a spot where ever you are. I still think of you I feel like I should be able to think about you with out these kind of thoughts. I just wish I could still talk to you. Just one more time. Just to hear your voice. Just once more. If you get what I send then maybe you know how I feel about what you did. It wasn't fair to anyone. It was selfish of you to take my world away from me. I try not to be mad at you but I can't help these emotions you left me with. Since you left I've just felt distant from everyone. Everybody loves me now. I play football now. I wish you could've seen me when I started. I've gotten real big. Like I'm huge now. I try to help my granny as much as possible. I do what I can for everyone but sometimes I'm not enough to help. I've made alot of friends too. I wish that they could've met you. I just always think about how things would be if you were here. People say I'm how I am cause you're gone. I think that too. I'd probably be the same as I am now but just with a real smile all the time. I just don't think you knew how much you meant to me. To all of us. Ya know people ask me "If you could talk to him again what would you say?" I always give the same response. "I wouldn't." I wouldn't say anything because I know that you're gone and the time we would have together would be short and it would be pointless to even look at you because the pain would just be worse to see you again just to watch you leave. I don't know what I would do if I saw you again. I just wish you were still here. I think of all the goofy stuff you would do. All the stuff you did for me and all the stuff you wanted for us. I just wish that I could've had you a little longer. I wish my words could reach you. I still remember the last thing I said to you. "I love you" was the last thing I said to you. I don't think I had ever said it with that much meaning in my life. I just knew you'd be there when we got back. I knew that I would be able to give you hugs for the rest of forever. But that's not how it works. I've learned one rule in life and its that all the good things go first. But I still love you. Always and Forever.
~Don
