My Broken Prince •Jyrus•

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I shrug my shoulders.

"Your mom did inform me that you were shy over the phone, how about I tell you some things about myself so you can warm up to me?" I shrug again and she continues. "Alright, well I was a foster child I've been in the system until I was 16, I grew up thinking no one wanted me but my foster family they helped me through that. I learned that it's better to get things off your chest, because if you let all your feelings bottle up you'll just explode"

I tried killing myself, I'm pretty sure I already exploded.

"Still not saying anything I see...well we got at least 50 minutes left so take your time"

Fifty minutes? You have got to be kidding me? Is it that hard to just let me sit in my room? I don't want to be here on earth at all.

Like what's next? I'm bullied physically, I can never seem to make the right choice, my dad was abusive, I'm pretty sure I have a drinking problem, I used to think Jade and Jordan were my friends, and speaking of Jordan he raped me.

Out of all things that could've happened to me...

"Jonah are you okay?"

I now realize that tears are rolling down my cheek, and I wipe them away quickly. "Can I leave?"

"Of course but-"

I stand up and I walk out of there and straight to my mom's car.

"What happened?"

"Just take me home" I whisper, and I stare out the window on our journey back trying my best not to break down and cry.

Once we get there I get out of the car quickly to find Cyrus playing on his phone on the porch. "Jonah I wanted to say sorry"

Of course he does, he always feels the need to apologize for everything, when it's always ends up being my fault.

I ignore him though and I walk into our already unlocked house, finally letting all my tears fall.

Everything is my fault, I should've just listened to Cyrus, Buffy, and Andi when they tried to pull me away from Jordan. I shouldn't have went up those stairs with him at that party, I shouldn't have let him talk me into drinking.

I punch the wall next to my bedroom door in aggravation, before I walk in and I go straight to my bathroom.

Where is it? Where is my blade!

I look around frantically, before I just give up running my fingers through my hair viciously and pacing back and forth in my room.

"Jonah calm down" Cyrus says.

"Don't tell me what to do, no one listens to me and until then no one gets to tell me what to do" I snap

"I do listen to you"

"You do? Then why did you take me to that party!?"

Why did I let him take me to that party? That's my fault too.

All of sudden my chest starts to tighten and I start to find it hard to breathe, like a fish with no water.

I slide down my wall gasping for air, it's like I'm breathing but I'm not. It's hard to explain.

My body begins to shake and I bring my knees up to my chests, crying harder.

"Take deep breaths sweet heart" My mom sqauts down next to me and she starts to slowly move her fingers through my hair.

I try to do as she says and I take deep breaths and she begins to hum a song in my ear.

"Cyrus can you go get him some water?"

"Yeah" Cyrus leaves and I continue to take deep breaths.

My shaking begins to calm down and I stretch my legs, my hand still shaking a bit.

"Here's your H2O my little prince" Cyrus flashes me a small smile before he sits down next to me and hands me a glass of water.

I take the water and I drink it quickly, placing the cup on the floor.

My breathing slows down a bit and goes back to being somewhat normal, I lean my head on Cyrus's shoulder and I just cry more.

"Can I talk to him alone Susan?"

"Umm yeah, I'll be in the kitchen if you guys need anything" My mom leaves and I wrap my arms around Cyrus cuddling him.

"I can't kiss you on the cheek, but you can lay and hug me"

"Shut up" I laugh a little and I sit up wiping my face. "What did you want to apologize about?"

"I wanted to say sorry for earlier, for coming in here and telling you I couldn't handle us being friends because my feelings were to strong for us to just be friends but then I realized that our relationship status isn't as important as you right now, so I can wait as long as you want"

I take my finger and I place it under Cyrus's chin to make him look at me, our noses brushing past each others.

"Can I kiss you?" I ask.

"Well I mean, I don't think kissing me would help with the fact that you just had a literal break down, but I'm not complaining"

"So that's a yes?" I ask for clarification.

"Yes"

I close the space in between us kissing him, trying to release all of my negative energy and I've realized just how much I've missed him. I missed this. I missed us.

We pull apart breathing heavy, his face begins to turn red and a smile grows on his face causing one to grow on my face.

"I love you" I say

"I love you too"

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