Chapter 29 | Give It A Chance
The school day had gone by super fast and we were already on our lunch break. Shane decided to join Mia, Sadie, and I for lunch instead of hanging with his friends. It was awkward, I'll be honest, but he and Mia made each other happy, and that defeated my uncomfortableness.
"So, how's dating life treating you guys?" Sadie asked.
Shane chuckled. "It's going great. I couldn't ask to be with a greater girl than Mia."
Mia blushed at his words. They were honestly beyond adorable together. I couldn't think of a better couple than them.
My eyes shifted over to the table behind Shane and Mia. They were stuck on Ray for the longest time being. He was sitting there, laughing with his friends and eating his lunch, looking like he was having the time of his life.
My heart lingered on the pain I was feeling. It was like someone was stomping all over the already shattered pieces over and over again.
His eyes met mine and it felt like everything in the world had stopped for a split second. The smile dropped from his face immediately. He opened his mouth like he was going to say something, but nothing came out.
Our eyes were glued to each others' for what felt like an eternity. I didn't know what he was feeling at that point, but all I know was that I still loved him.
I was still in love with the boy that broke my heart.
It might've been the stupidest thing in the world to be in love with someone that didn't love me back in the first place, but that's just how it was.
"Maybe you should go over there and talk to him," Sadie whispered in my ear.
This drew my attention off of Ray. I looked at her and shook my head. "That's not a good idea."
She sighed. "I can see it in your eyes that you still love him."
I picked at my food. "It doesn't matter, he doesn't love me back."
"Jade, you know damn well that that's a lie," she argued.
"I was a game to him, Sadie. It doesn't matter that I'm still in love with him because I shouldn't be."
"I'm just saying, talking to him might actually make you feel better."
"I don't know, we'll see."
I looked back over to the table he was sitting at, only to find his eyes still glued to me. My teeth clenched together, trying not to cry in front of everyone.
There's not a second that goes by in the day that he doesn't cross my mind. Every moment we shared together played in my head on a loop. A painful loop, to be precise.
At the end of the day, I had to go visit Mr. Riley, my math teacher that put Ray and me together, for a meeting or something. He emailed me out of the blue asking if we could meet up to discuss something.
I walked into the cold classroom and found the love of my life standing right before our teacher as well. Both eyes landed on me at the same time.
"Jade, I'm glad you could make it," Mr. Riley said, cutting the tension in the room.
I nodded my head. "Yeah, so what did you need me for?"
"Here, have a seat," he gestured to the chair. "I wanted to talk to you about how Raysen is doing with his school work."
I nodded my head to his statement. I could feel Ray's eyes on me, but I tried my best to focus on what Mr. Riley was trying to say to me.
"Yes, what about it?" I asked.
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