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Ray and I both walked back to the bus as quietly as we could of course it was easy for Ray since his bed was closer to the front of the bus but mine was in the back and everyone had their things everywhere so it felt like an eternity until I got to my bunk.
I was about to get into my bunk when I heard someone say
"I hope it was worth it"
I turned to find Roc of course looking up at top of his bunk.

"What?" I said but I knew what he was talking about.

"Don't play stupid Yessica you know what I'm talking about, unless you want me to say it out loud"

"Look I know it looks bad but I'm trying to get it cleared up okay so leave me alone" I said as I turned back around.

"You know you never struck me as one of those girls" I heard Roc say.

"It's because I'm not" I replied, waiting for Roc to say something in return he said nothing, he was silent and that said more than words ever could.

The next morning I was woken up by a girl who was shaking me up. She had black long hair with red streaks in it.

"Hey wake up" she said rather loudly "Dave wants us to try some of the dance clothes before our performance" she finished saying before walking off.

"Wait" I said as I was getting up from my bed.

"What?" she replied.

"What's your name?" I asked as I was changing into some sweats and tank.

"Jasminee and yours" she asked in return.

"Yessica, Yessica Cruz" I said walking up to her.

"Well Yessica get ready because first day of tour rehearsal will be the craziest" Said Jasminee as she walked out of the bus and walked off.

"Great just what I need" I mumbled to myself.

I met up with Alex who was talking to Amber, which kind of caught me off guard.

"Hey" I said as I tapped Alex shoulder.

"Oh hey! amber and I were just talking about the show tomorrow"

"Right so have your seen prod?" I asked her.

"Uh no sorry" alex replied.

"If your looking for prod he's on the bus" amber said as she walked off.

I walked into prods bus and surely he was there.

"Hey" I said

"Hey lovely" Craig stood up and came over to kiss me but I took a step back.

"Is everything okay?" he asked.

"We need to talk and your not going to like it but you deserve to know the truth"

"Yessica what is it?"

"Ray and I have been sleeping together for a while now and I am deeply sorry and I can understand if you don't wanna be with me anymore" I said looking down.

"That's it? so what you come over here telling me like it's something your proud of? nice to know you were loyal" Craig said angry as he walked out of the bus leaving me behind.

I walked out of the bus and went to the studio with the other dancers practicing for our show tomorrow. Once the day was over we all got into the busses which would take us to Texas for our first show.

I was laying down on my bunk thinking of Craig and how stupid i was to lose him, I turned over to Roc who was on his phone looking at who knows what.

"Hey" I whispered to him.

"What do want?" roc said rather coldly.

"Do you hate me?" I asked

Roc sighed as he locked his phone and turned over to me.

"Yessica, I could never hate you, when I first met you I instantly fell in love with you as a person. You seemed independent, strong, funny, and sweet, turns out I was wrong"

I layer there silently staring at Roc.

"I know your upset I don't blame you, you have every right to be, I just don't know what happened" I said looking up at my bunk.

"Yessica we didn't just let you into the team because you were just a good dancer, we let you in because we thought you could handle all the pressure and temptation that comes with the "fame life", you were funny and sweet and we thought we could use someone like you on the road with us to keep us happy and upbeat, but when we found out what you did with Ray it just shows that maybe you aren't cut out for this kind of stuff"

"I am ready and I know what I did was wrong, that's why we can't be friends anymore"

Roc then looked straight at me with a blank face.

"What? your breaking our friendship?"

"Look Roc, your right there's to much temptation and pressure and I don't want Craig to think anything else is going on between me and some other guy on the crew, I want him back and if that means isolating every guy on this tour so be it because I'm not giving up on Craig and I"

Just then I turned around shut my eyes and went to bed.

The next morning we all rehearsed the show before doing our performance. Once we took a break I saw Craig walk off stage and I decided to go talk to him.

"Hey" I said looking at him.

"Hey" he replied with a monotone voice as he walked off.

"Wait, please, can we talk?" I asked walking closer to him.

"What's there to talk about Yessica you cheated on me with one of my band mates there's not much to it" Craig said as he turned around and began walking to the stage again.

"Does that mean theres no chance we'll be together?" I asked waiting for him to turn and say something.

Craig turned his head and said "no there is no way in hell that we will ever get back together Yessica" and he walked off.

The words hurt, they stabbed like knives but I wasn't determined to give up just yet.

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