after all this time? (JhoBea)

chapter 5

Ughhh!

I hate the feeling like this

All of the pain I had to Ann was flashing back kase I remembered me and Ann also started with an unexpected kiss........

And my fears starts to get me overthinking!

And it's happening again!!!!! Na baka si jho na and sunod!!!!! Baka si jho na ang sunod na Mang iiwan sakin...

I forgot to tell you that I fall asleep here at the oval and the worst is I have dreamt a bad dream!!! A truly bad dream

Nightmare

I was feeling sad because of something! I don't  even know why I am sad! But all I know is I talked to a beautiful girl with her husband? I don't know ehh...

And then there's a friend of mine who was comforting me... But i still keep on crying.....

That friend adviced me that "sometimes you should know how to let go... And sometimes you also need to confess your feelings before its to late" and that friend leaves

I was now walking, not knowing whats happening on my surroundings. All I know is im walking and crying.

I was about to cross the pedestrian lane when I heard a horn of a truck and a scream from a lady....

That lady was screaming my name and that lady also was the girl with her husband? I was about to turn around when something hit me

"BEAAAAAAAAA" the girl screamed

Yes! I was hitted by a truck.... And all I know is that girl is now holding my hand crying and told me something

"No Bea!!! You can't leave me just like this! The first one is when we were in highschool and now the second! You'll leave me almost forever???? Beaaaaaaaaaaaa please keep your eyes open!!" The girl said while crying

I held her hand and I Said to her...

"Don't worry I'll always love you! Like almost forever too" I said in week gesture

And now..... All I know is I closed my eyes and everything went black....

End of nightmare

I cried when I know that nightmare!
It feels so real! Like it would happen.

..............................

Many weeks had passed and im still having some nightmares...

I mean this nightmare thingy happened before, when me and Ann got broked up with each other.. but it stopped when I transferred here at ateneo! But now! Ever since ann got here its happening again!

And I feel that my teammates is starting to notice my changes, from the naughty ones to a lonely ones....

And now ate ly is walking at my direction

"Baby besh ok ka Lang ba?" Ate ly asked

"Uhmm... Oo ate aly im fine! Don't worry" I said na Parang walang pain sa puso

"Baby besh nag babago kana Kasi ehh.... Ano bang problema?" Ate ly asked again

"You wouldn't understand ate ly ehh! But I promise you I'll figure it out what's happening to me... And I'll be me again!" I said in promising tone