5 months. 5 months she's been gone. I think about her everyday. I saw how much gray missed her. We had stopped the YouTube videos. Gray had fallen into depression. Almost never came out of his bedroom. It killed me to watch him like that, knowing there was nothing I could do to stop him from feeling such pain.
The only source of happiness I had left in my life was Rachel. I loved her. But it saddens me how much she reminded me of lyric.
I sat in the warehouse alone. It was 11 at night. Rachel was in the house asleep. And Grayson was locked up in his room. I've tried multiple times to talk to him. To get him on his feet again, but it was no use.
When I checked my phone I saw it was 11:11 so I decided to take a picture on Snapchat.
I covered up half of my face in the picture because I had started crying. I didn't need my fans knowing that. I'd let them down.
Suddenly my phone buzzed and I saw that Grayson had tweeted and posted a photo on twitter.
I first clicked on the Instagram post.
My heart started racing as I clicked on the tweet
I dropped my skateboard and ran into the house.
I ran all the way to Grayson's room and pounded on the door.
"GRAYSON. OPEN THIS DOOR. YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME."
"LET ME IN." I cried.
After a couple seconds of no answer I ran into the kitchen and grabbed a chair. I ran back to Grayson's door and through the chair against it, causing the door to bust open.
When I got it I was faced with Grayson's body, laying on the floor next to an empty pill bottle.
I ran towards Grayson's body and shook him. Tears slipping down my face.
"Gray no no stay with me. Talk to me. I'm right here." I cried holding his body. His eyes fluttered open. They were bloodshot. Like he hadn't stopped crying since she left.
"I'll finally get to be with her." He choked out.
I shook my head hard. "This isn't the way to be with her." "She's here grayson. She's right fucking here." I pointed to his heart.
"RACHEL CALL 911!" I screamed.
"And in a few minutes. She'll be right here." Grayson says pointing to his eyes.
"I love you Eth." He cries.
"No! No! Grayson don't do this!" I scream as his eyes flutter closed.
"Let go Ethan." He whispers.
"GRAYSON NO PLEASE, OPEN YOU EYES. DON'T DO THIS." I scream crying as I took ahold of his shirt, Now soaked by both our tears.
Rachel ran in with the paramedics by her side.
They ran in and pushed me out of the way, starting CPR.
I ran to Rachel and cried in her arms.
I've lost two of the most important people in my life.
"Uh, sir? This was on the boys desk." One of the paramedics says, handing me a paper.
I took it and unfolded it.
Ethan and Rachel,
I know this isn't what you wanted. I've tried for so long not to think about her but I can't. I told her I couldn't imagine a life without her. And honestly, there wasn't one. Please do not blame yourselves for what I did. This was my decision and no one could have done anything to stop it. I love you both, so much. But I just couldn't stay here. By the time you read this, I'll be with her, happiest I'll ever be. I'm sorry I've done this to you. But we all knew I wasn't going anywhere with my life. I'm sorry if you don't agree with my choice, but it's already been decided. You two better get married. Both Lyric and I will be attending the wedding from up here. I love you guys. See you around.