Together Forever

His Mum.

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Throughout the day, I got countless other photos, all on the same wavelength. I wasn't going to lie to myself and say I didn't enjoy it because for some odd reason, seeing the kids enjoying their time with Zaid and his family genuinely made me happy.

I was expecting myself to be a little apprehensive, but alhamdulillah that I was feeling nothing but contentment.

My phone rang once again and I walked to my bed from the bathroom where I had wudhu and answered Zaid's call.

"Assalamu alaykum." I said and he returned the greeting.

"Hamza and Hafsa have started asking when they're going to see you and they're getting a bit uncomfortable so I think I'll bring them over. Just wanted to check that you're home." He said.

I smiled. How cute.

My babies.

"I'm home. I'm just going to pray Maghrib. I'm going to go to my mums though, so I'll pick them up if that's okay? Otherwise you're going to be driving down and then back up the same way that I'm heading anyway, you get me?" I spoke.

"Oh, okay. Then, uh, do you just wanna tell them that? They're a bit restless."

"Sure. Pass the phone to Hamza." I said.

"Hamza, mummy wants to talk to you, buddy, come here." I heard Zaid say. I smiled.

Jheeze. I was smiling so much today.

"Mummy!?" Hamza said loudly making me chuckle.

"Hey, sweetheart! Are you having fun?" I asked, sitting on the end of my bed.

"Yes! Me and Hafsa had fun. Can we come home now?" He whined.

"Baby, I'm going to pray maghrib and then I'm going to come pick you up, okay?"

"How long!?" He asked me with a groan.

"Hamza." I chastised.

"Sorry, mummy."

"Go play some more with your sister and everyone else. I'll be there soon, inshaaAllah." I told him.

"InshaaAllah." He said. "I love you, mummy."

"I love you too, baby. Tell Hafsa I love her as well, okay?"

"Okay. Bye." He answered before Zaid clearly got the phone again.

"Hey."

"Yeah, hi." I said. "I should be there in thirty minutes inshaaAllah." I told him.

"You'll get here in twenty, speedy." He chuckled, making me freeze. His breath also caught.

It's been years since I heard that nickname from him.

"Sorry. I'm sorry. It just..."

"It's fine. I'll be there soon." I said before quickly hanging up and rubbing my hands over my face.

I didn't know how long I was going to keep this up. One voice in my head was telling me 'just let go of this stubbornness and forgive him' but another was telling me I didn't go through all that pain and heartbreak for no reason.

Well, I had already forgiven him anyway but the only question now was whether or not I wanted to be a family with him.

I remember my dad telling me if there was one person he'd want me to be a family with it would be Zaid and my mum told me that might be best for our kids, but was I going to just forget everything that happened just to be with him?