It has been an extremely long time since I have updated Christians - Remember Why, and I wish I was returning with a joyous new devotion, but sadly, I am not. I have been absent for so long, mostly because I have been battling depression for the past few years which makes it so, so hard for me to do the things that I once loved (like writing). But, if I were to be honest, there is another reason I have not been back to post a new devotion.
Sometimes, I feel as though everyone that reads my devotions sees me in a brighter light than others. They think I have everything put together and know a vast amount of information about God. The truth is, I have fallen so far that I cannot find my way back up. The past few months (since around February 2017) have been the hardest and most confusing days for my faith, since I first became a Christian in 2011. I no longer have a desire to grow closer to God, to follow His word, to go to church, to engage in fellowship or to listen to the worship music that I once adored.
I am angry with God for the first time since I began my journey with Him, and as I try to understand Him more and more, I only grow angrier. I know how to believe, but I have lost the ability -or the will- to follow.
I share this with you all, not looking for advice or sympathy, but so that everyone knows I am far from perfect in my faith. In this chapter, I have no answers for you. I have no words of guidance or assurance. I am lost and if you are lost too, I can not tell you which path leads to Jesus. I cannot say 'It will be okay, just stay strong in your faith!' because I know that it is not always going to be okay. I have no idea if I will be returning to finally continue Christians - Remember Why. Maybe someday, I will 'remember why' myself and be able to write about God again. For now, I don't see the light at the end of that tunnel.
So, guard your hearts and faiths tightly, friends. And as I always say 'Have a Christ-centered day', or if you are in my boat, just..
Breathe, and have 'a day'.
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To Christians Everywhere, remember why you are here. Remember why you pray. Remember why you have eternal life. Remember who you are. An easy to follow devotional with short and to the point lessons about the Bible. God and Christianity.