I Swore I'd Be Just Fine When You're Gone. (Jaime Preciado)

There's not a wound in this world that won't heal with time

Allie's POV~

Jaime had suggested I get out of the house to get 'some peace and quiet' for the day, so I had listened. Although, it wasn't like I hadn't already been getting peace and quiet. I had been alone the past week. He had been off with the guys recording, and had been taking Kota with him. So I was by myself, in the big empty quiet house. I think he wanted me to get out into the real world and try to get back to being normal, but he wouldn't just say that to me of course. No. Instead he chose 'peace and quiet'. Personally, I was getting sick of the quiet. I wanted to be around people. That's what was normal to me. Not being alone all day. Not silence. That just gave me too much time to think.

Since I knew they weren't recording today, I decided to call Mike. He seemed like the best bet to have some normality today. Vic would want me to talk about things. Tony would be the quiet I didn't want. Mike, Mike would take me off somewhere and force me into having fun. I just had to hope he hadn't already made some kind of plans, it being his first day off lately and all.

"Aye short shit, what's up?" He answered on the second ring, that meant he wasn't busy. Good.

"Hey, I was wondering if you wanted to hit the town today or somethin? I dunno, Jaime sent me out and I'm lonely and bored and can't go back home because I'm supposed to be out." I said as I walked into a starbucks. "If you already had plans with the one of the guys or somethin though don't worry about. I can find something else entertaining."

He chuckled, "why do you always say one of the guys, why never a girl? I am capable of getting a girl ya know." He said as I raised my eyebrows. Yes I was perfectly aware Mike was capable of getting a girl. I mean he was Mike. He just hadn't gotten one in a while, that I knew of anyway.

"Well Mike, do you already have plans with a girl? Because if you do that is totally understandable and I will find something else to do for the day. No problem." I said as he chuckled again.

"No. I don't. Where you at? I'll meet ya." He said as I heard the door open and close.

"Starbucks on beachside." I answered, pointing at a muffin for the cashier lady to pull out for me.

"Great, be there in ten." He said before hanging up. I put my phone back into my pocket and ordered an iced coffee, then going to sit outside and wait for Mike.

"I hope you wore a bikini." He said as he stood in front of me in nothing but some swimming trunks.

"Well yeah, wouldn't come to beachside otherwise." I said with a laugh. I handed him my half eaten muffin, which he happily ate in four bites, and threw my drink away. I pulled off my tshirt and shorts and threw them in his car along with my shoes. "Let's get on with it."

We walked down to where the beach was basically empty, or as empty as beaches get, and laid in the sand for a while. I played around with shells while Mike attempted to bury me alive, but of course every time he'd get a decent amount on me I'd shift and knock it all off.

"So Al." He said, breaking the silence. Instead of responding to him I kicked him for using that nickname. I let Jaime get away with it, the rest just thought they were funny. They weren't. "You wanna talk about anything?" He asked, giving up on burying me, and laying on his back next to me. I let out a sigh as he poked my ribs. "Come on, it's not healthy to bottle things up, let it out."

"What if we can't get past it?" I said, glancing over at him. "It's pulling us apart, I can feel it. What if we can't go back to normal. What if I lose him again? I can't lose him again." I finished, shaking my head at the thought. I was miserable without Jaime, I'd always be miserable without Jaime. I needed him more than anything, and I was slowly pushing him farther and farther away.