Adopted By All Time Low

Chapter 35

Do you ever get that feeling like you're falling in a dream and you wake up breathless and terrified? That's how I felt. I felt like my body was being held down by restraints and if I blinked wrong, the world was gonna explode.

I sat in the same position on Alex's lap, trying to catch my breath. I usually forget my nightmares right after I wake up, but this one decided to stick around. I tried to blink away the tears forming in my eyes, but they jumped out instead and I sniffled a bit.

"Blake? Oh, shit. Blake, what's wrong?" Alex said tiredly.

"I-Its nothing. Go back to sleep." I said softly.

"Not until you tell me what's wrong."

"It was just a nightmare. I'll be fine." I said.

"Do you want to-" He was cut off by the sound of the bus door opening and the guys screaming our names.

"We're back here!" He called.

"Where the hell were you, man? We've been looking for you for half an hour. We've gotta go." Rian said as he texted the guys to let them know where we were.

"We have all our stuff on here already. We're ready when you are." I said. He was about to say something, but stopped.

"Hey, what's wrong?" He crouched in front of me.

"Nightmare." Alex answered.

"About?" He asked. Zack and Jack came on with their stuff and headed to where we were.

"Hey guys what's- why is she crying, who hurt her?" Zack asked.

"What?! Who hurt my angel, I'll fuck them up!" Jack screamed.

"She had a nightmare." Rian told them. They all crowded around me.

"What was your nightmare about?" Zack asked as he rubbed his thumb in a circle around my palm. It was a lot more calming than it sounds.

"I was reliving my mom's funeral and when I was shot. Then you guys wanted nothing to do with me and the thought of losing the closest thing I have to a family scared me." I admitted. Zack stood up and held me close in his arms.

"Hey, you aren't going to lose us, alright? Ohana means family, and family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten." He said. They all hugged me and he took me to his bunk so the guys could talk.

"You should go back to sleep. I have a feeling you were up all night." He said.

"I can't sleep."

"What do you think will help you fall asleep?" He asked.

"Cuddles...." I said. He laughed and opened his arms. Once I got close to him, he lifted me onto his stomach and wrapped his arms around me. It had only been less than five minutes, but I'd gotten bored and tried to match my breathing patterns with his. It didn't work the way I wanted it too and I started running out of breath, so I listened to his heartbeat instead. He started scratching my head softly and played with my hair a bit.

"Zack, will you sing to me?" I asked. He gave me his 'do I have to' look.

"Please?" I smiled. He sighed before taking in a breath.

'White lips, pale face

Breathing in the snowflakes

Burnt lungs, sour taste

Light's gone, day's end

Struggling to pay rent

Long nights, strange men