Chapter 40 || A Start Of Something New...

It's over. I never ever have to see Marissa again. The time of being harassed by a backstabbing bitch are officially over. Who would have thought that things will be turning out as they did.

Not me.

Paula and Marissa have been suspended from school and my mom broke up with Mark after I told her everything that has happened. To be honest, I was feeling guilty that my mom would breakup with her boyfriend just because of me but she told me that he turned out to be way too snobby and arrogant to handle.

I thought a lot about what Paula claimed to be the reason for her behaviour and I must say that I understand it. It does, by no means, justify what she did but I do complain a lot. My worst habit is that I often complain about things instead of doing something about it because it is easier to victimize yourself then to actually change something and this can be really annoying.

My thoughts about Marissa were pretty similar. I don't know what I would have done if my mother died when I was a little kid and my father was too busy to show me off like a trophy all the time. As I already said, it does not justify their actions but growing up with a lot of pressure put on you can sometimes make you go crazy.

I haven't spoken to anybody since the whole thing has happened. All I did was sitting in my room, binge watching movies and drown my discontentment in food. I have received many messages and calls from Noah but I didn't bother answering them.

I really didn't know what to say to him. Should I be angry ? Should I be understanding ? I don't know. It is hard to sort your thoughts out when you have no idea where to put them.

A sudden ringing of the door bell caused me to snap out of my thoughts. Approaching the door, I was praying for Noah to be somewhere else except right behind the front door. I really could not deal with him at the moment.

"Hey, Sofía.", a pretty face greeted me.

"Oh, Lizzie. You were actually one of the least person I expected you to visit me right know.", I made a quick gesture, signalling her to come in.

"I just came here to tell you that I am sorry. I know that this probably does not mean anything to you but I didn't have a clue of anything that was going on between Marissa and Paula. I wanted to talk to you but they kept me from doing it by telling me that you don't want to have to do anything with me anymore. Your unexpected friendship with Jessica kind of made me believing their lies."

"It's fine, Lizzie. I do not blame you for anything because I expected them to invent some weird stories to keep you from talking to me.", I sighed and collapsed on the couch in the living room. "What's up with you and Eddy, anyways ? Did something happen between you two ?"

"No, not really.", she seated herself next to me. "We are still friends and I believe it is better this way. I don't think he is ready yet to be in a serious relationship but who knows.", she shrugged. "Maybe in couple of years or maybe never, I really don't know."

"Don't worry.", I put my hand on my shoulder, trying to cheer her up. "He'll come around."

"Possibly. The better question is what are you going to do about Noah ? He is pretty stressed out because you are constantly declining his calls. I get that you are totally mad at him but I think you two should talk this out."

I knew that she was right but I really didn't want to talk to him. I would rather run laughing into a buzz saw. But she was right, I need to settle this conflict because I have to admit that I'm not completely guiltless on how the situation has turned out. "I guess."

"Okay, good. I will drive you.", my head shot up to her and my eyes widened in surprise. "Wait, you mean now ?"

"Of course or do you have something more important to attend ?", I was thinking about an excuse not to go but the silence lasted way too long to come up with a believable excuse. "Fine."

I quickly changed into something more appealing than my sweatpants and followed Lizzie down to her car.

After a ten minute ride we arrived at Noah's house. I got out of the car and slowly walked up to the front door. My hands were sweating and I was nervous as hell. I took a deep breath and rang the doorbell.

After hardly 2 minutes the door swung open and the tired face of Noah greeted me. You could tell that he hasn't slept for a long time because he had really dark circles under his eyes, his hair was a mess , not in a good way and he was probably wearing his shirt for five days straight now.

I must have been the least person he expected me to see here because his face was completely frozen in shock. "What are you doing here ?"

"Wow, what a lovely welcome. Can I come in ?", he stepped out of the way and let me into the house.

"Look Sofía, I am really sorry. I didn't know what Marissa was up to and then you were suddenly with Jessica and I was so confused and..."

"The problem wasn't a lack of knowledge, but a lack of trust. Nobody knew what Marissa was up to, even I didn't know but I wasn't a complete stranger to you and you knew I would never try to sabotage you.", I felt the tears forming in my eyes. I desperately tried to hold them back but it was barely possible.

"You were the one who constantly changed her mind. Yes. No. Yes. No.", he replied angrily. "Sometimes you were avoiding me for no reason. You never really talked to me. How should I have been able to trust you ?"

"You could have trusted me but instead you decided to cut corners because it was easier for you blame me for everything than to try to find out what was really going on. Have you ever even considered the fact that I was innocent ?", I scoffed at him, my tears running down my cheeks like a waterfall.

His facial expression softened and he came closer to me until his face was only a few inches away from mine. Lifting up my chin with his finger, he looked me deeply in the eyes and took a deep breath. "I love you, Sofía."

Those words were exactly the one's I begged not to hear from him. He could've tried to convince me by coming up with reasonable arguments or by showing that he is willing to work things out but instead he decided to take the "I love you"-card.

Every time a couple fight, the man tries to comfort the woman by saying "I love you" to avoid a further confrontation.

He could've have done anything to solve the problem like a man but instead he chose to draw off the attention from it like a little boy.

I stepped back, taking his finger away from my chin and fixed my eyes on him."You made a decision, Noah, and now you have to live with the consequences. Saying that you love me doesn't revoke the choice you made."

"Do not throw words around like they don't have a meaning just because you don't know how to deal with a problem.", I hissed at him, causing him to look down on the floor uncomfortably.

"Stand up or shut up. You had the choice and you made it.", I spun around on my heels, approaching the front door when I felt a hand around my wrist.

"Does that mean it's over ?", his facial expression was a mixture between sadness and worry.

"I never said that I will never forgive you but I think we both still need to work things out until we are ready to start a new chapter.", I walked up to the door and turned to him one more time.

"I guess, we will see what the future holds for us.", I gave him a warm smile, opened the door and left.

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