Seokjin had been in the kitchen, making dinner for he and Hoseok. It'd been 3 days since he had gone to Namjoon's house and since then, Namjoon hadn't bothered him. Maybe the kid finally got the hint to leave him alone. He didn't know how much longer he could put up with the pretence, he could now at least breathe in fresh air.
"Hey, babe," Jin almost jumped as a hand went to hold around his waist. "Calm down, it's just me."
Seokjin sighed, "Hoseok."
"Mmmh," Hoseok hummed in response, hands caressing Seokjin's stomach up to his chest.
Jin chuckled, "I'm making dinner, baby."
"I see that," Hoseok whispered, peppering kisses on Jin's neck.
Seokjin tilted his head to the side, allowing Hoseok more room.
"T-the food, baby," Seokjin chuckled again, softly.
"But I want you," Hoseok said, turning Seokjin in his arms
Jin's heart skipped at Hoseok's words. He slowly untangled Hoseok's hands from around his waist.
Hoseok put his head down, he knew Jin was going to push him away again, but he had wanted to try.
"It's fine, baby. It's just hard to process that I disgust you now," Hoseok said and started to walk away.
"That's not it, Hoseok," Jin held unto his wrist.
"It's not?" Hoseok didn't turn around.
"No, baby," Jin sighed. "It's just..." Jin couldn't bring himself to make his words. "I don't- Hoseok, we- Every time that I try to open up I just-" Seokjin paused. He couldn't do it. He couldn't!
"You asked me to give you time. How much longer do I have to wait for what it is? I need to know, Jin," Hoseok said. "It's not fair. I don't know what happened while I was away but it's totally messed with us- whatever it is that we are now. I just need to understand what is happening with you. I hate the way we have to be now. This isn't us, Jin!"
"I know, Hoseok. I'm trying but it's not easy for me," Jin said. He had let go of Hoseok's hand and placed his head in his palms. "I'm just... going through so much. And it's all my fault! It's my fault! I should have been stronger, I should have raised my guards higher, I should have been a better person, I should have been the bigger person! To learn to say no! To push away! To fight for what I love! To fight for the love of my life! I should- I should have been a bad neighbor! Maybe this wouldn't happen now! Maybe I wouldn't have hurt you the way I did! I'm such a failure, a fuck up, Hoseok!"
Hoseok was confused, one minute Jin was saying he should have been a better person and the next he was talking about being a bad neighbor. He wanted to help Jin, to get him out of the pain he was going through, but how could he do that without knowing what the problem was in the first place.
Should he just calm down and give Jin the chance to tell him at his own time? But how easy was that? He missed Jin so much, maybe he sounded selfish, but he was loosing his patience. He wanted to be with his Seokjin like before, but he was scared that things might not go back to how they used to. He was scared that his relationship, maybe, was on the line.
"I really hate it, Jin! I hate it so much! I hate it! I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!" Taehyung shouted at Jin, as they were at the gym.
It was 2 in the afternoon and the gym was empty, besides Jin and Taehyung who worked there.
"Okay!? That's all your gonna say!? Aren't you stupid!?"
"What do you want me to say then? You hate it, cool. End of story."
"End of story!? How can you be so inconsiderate? Do you know how he feels!? Do you have any idea what you're doing!? You're killing your relationship! I mean, is your relationship even alive!? It's a fucking mess!"
"It is my relationship, so keep off!"
"Hell no! You are my friend and so is Hoseok! And I won't let you fool yourself! What you are doing is wrong! Put a fucking end to it!"
"How the hell am I suppose to do it!?"
"Tell him! Fuck whatever it is that kid says, and tell Hoseok what the hell happened between you and that bastard! It's really unfair! It's bad enough that you cheated on him, and you keep torturing him!"
"It's not so easy!"
"And you think it is for him!? Have you tried to put yourself in his shoes!? It's not easy for you, I know but what about him!? Huh!? Or does it just run in your family!? Are all the males born to be dicks to those who love them or- oof!"
Jin brought his hand down, waving it in pain.
"Don't you fucking talk like that about my family," Jin glared at him.
Taehyung held unto his nose that was bleeding, groaning in pain.
"You bastard! You fucking punched me!?"
"I know you're right. Everything you said, it's fucking right and I know I'm wrong to keep this away from Hoseok for so long or to even have cheated on him and I wish it were as easy as you think to come out clean to him but you don't talk like that about my family, Taehyung! You're one of my best friends and I expected you to understand me more than anyone, but you don't. Rather you're making me feel so guilty and sinful, like the weight of the world is on me. You make me feel like I killed someone and hid the body. You make me regret telling you this in the first place. Maybe I shouldn't have told you, then you wouldn't say shit to me like this."
Taehyung remained silent.
"I get it, your point. Hoseok deserves to know the truth and I feel so horrible for doing this to him. But you have to try and understand me too, Taehyung," Jin said pleadingly. "I want to tell him, I really do but I'm scared. Scared that Hoseok might get involved in all of this."
"And he isn't involved it now?"
"He doesn't know it and I'd not want for him to panic."
"What about that psycho? Do you think he's going to stop this all of a sudden? Just because he isn't saying anything now doesn't mean he has left it alone. That kid is-"
"I'll handle the kid. I don't know, I'm thinking and I'm really confused now, but I'll figure it out soon."
Taehyung nodded. "If you need anything, tell me. I'm sorry for what I said, I'm really sorry. I panicked. I just don't want anything to happen to you and Hoseok. I'm just really sorry."
Jin nodded. "It's fine, no worries. I understand. And uh, I'm sorry for- nah! I always kinda wanted to punch you for a while now, so nope!"
"You fucker!" Taehyung laughed and shoved Jin.
"You are so annoying."
"It's not my fault that I love you and Hoseok so much and want you to be safe."
"Yeah, whatever," Taehyung mimicked his voice. "You sound like a girl."
Jin laughed, "Shut up, Hobbit. Let's get you cleaned up. That's gonna leave a nasty scar."
"Yeah, no thanks to you, Rocky."
Jin laughed as they headed to the locker room.
"Wait till Jungkook sees this," Taehyung said.
"Shit, don't tell him I did this."
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Crazy, Stupid ; 2seok ✓Fanfiction
❝Look what you made me do, baby.❞ ★★★ If Jin could go back in time, he would unmake every stupid mistake he made, and save himself the future hurt and pain. But would that still be enough? Copyright © 2018 by @kpfics