"What was that all about?" You asked, scratching her head confused. "I don't know but she was acting really weird," I replied and sat down at my seat. The way she acted... Was I suppose to know her? Her voice was so familiar. Almost angelic. Her eyes were sparkling with hope at first but it quickly disappeared when I said I didn't know her. The sparkle in her eyes made my heart flutter. She was so cute and nervous when she came up to us. I wanted to pinch her cheeks and hold her tightly. Why am I thinking like this?! I shook my head and tried to calm down.
"Maybe Kanan knows her! I heard her talking about a new girl moving here!" Chika said. "Probably, we'll have to ask her after school," I said. The bell rang, signaling that lunch was over and everyone went back to their seats.
Chika, You, and I were walking to the others. "Kanan!" Chika yelled and ran over to her to hug her. Kanan chuckled and hugged her back. "Hey guys!" Kanan greeted. We greeted her and everyone else. "Did you guys see the new girl around? I heard that she was put into the same class as you guys." Dia said while leaning against Kanan. "Yea, she was acting really weird today. She came up to Riko and asked her if she remembered her. Then she ran away." You told them. "That's weird," Kanan said.
"I was late to class today. I didn't get to hear her name. What was it?" I asked. "Her name is (Y/N) (L/N). She moved here from Akihabara. She was adopted by two women after her mom died in a car crash and her dad left her." Kanan said. "That's so sad... I feel so bad for her..." Ruby said.
I felt my breathing stop as my heart began to beat faster and louder. How.....How could I have forgotten about her? How could I forget my best friend... No wonder why she looked so broken when I said I didn't remember her. Guilt began to flood over me as I remembered the broken and hurt look on her face.
I began to feel worse when I started to remember what I did to her. I left her without a word. I thought that it would be the easier for the both of us if I didn't mention me leaving. But it didn't. I never stopped thinking about her. Until I meant Chika and You. I nearly forgot about her till now.
"Riko, are you okay? You're crying." I heard Yoshiko asked concerned. I snapped out of it and looked up to see everyone looking at me with concern. "Wa-Wait Kanan... Did you say that she was adopted?" I stuttered. She nodded with a frown. I couldn't believe it. Her mom died and her dad left her. And I wasn't there to comfort her. I wasn't there for her when she needed me, unlike the other times when she was always there for me.
"I heard from her parents that she's been depressed. Poor kid." Kanan sighed. Dia rubbed her back comfortingly and Kanan smiled at her. She's even been through depression? She's been through worse than I have. "Where does she live?" I asked. "She lives in the house next to mine," Kanan told me. I nodded and ran to her place. "Riko?! Where are you going?!" Chika yelled after me. "I have to do something!" I yelled back. I have to talk to her before she does something that might hurt the both of us even more.
Tears streamed down my cheeks as I sat on the edge of the cliff. I let out sobs as I covered my eyes with the palm of my hands. My parents were at work and my sister was at daycare so I didn't have anywhere to run to.
My arms were bleeding from the new cuts I made. I didn't care anymore. Nothing mattered to me. My own best friend doesn't even recongize who I was. She didn't even know my name. She moved on. She probably has a happy life. She's happy without me. She doesn't need me. No one does. I don't matter. I'm just a person who's desperate to get back with someone they lost. I would only drag her down.
I looked down at the cliff to see huge crashing waves and jagged rocks. It almost looked welcoming. My moms would be happier with just my sister. Riko has the other two girls and a bright future ahead of her. Everyone had someone in their lives. Expect for me. I thought that if I saw Riko again, I would be happy once more. But instead, it hurt me more than anything.
I rose up to my feet and stared down at the crashing waves. I began to step closer to the edge until the front part of my feet weren't even on the ground anymore. I began to lean forward, waiting for the moment where everything ends. Until..
A voice yelled out from behind me. I knew that voice too well. I quickly found my balance again and snapped out of my trance. I saw how close I was to falling and quickly backed away. I felt something crash into me from behind, pulling me into a tight embrace.
"It's you.. It's really you..." she sobbed. She buries her face on my back as her grip around me tightened. I felt my eyes water more and looked down. "You didn't even remember me..." I whispered. She lets go of me and stands in front of me. She cupped my cheeks and made me look at her. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying while her cheeks had tear stains on it.
"I know and I'm so sorry. I'm such a jerk for not even remembering who my best friend was. I'm so sorry I left you behind. I-I thought that it would be easier for the both of us if I never mentioned it. But it hurt the both of us so much." She sobbed. I pulled her close and cried my heart out. We held onto each other as if our lives depended on it. I never want to let her go and I hope she felt the same about me.
"(Y/N)... I'm sorry... I understand if you don't want to be my best friend anymore." She said, looking down. I looked at her in shock then held her hand tightly. "Don't you ever say that! I need you with me! Ever since you left me, I've been a mess. I wasn't happy anymore and no matter how hard I tried, I kept thinking about you. I want to be beside you Riko. You mean everything to me and you're so important to me. Pl-Please don't leave me again. I-I love you." I confessed.
Her eyes were wide with shock as she stared at me. Her eyes began to water and she hugged me tightly. "I love you too (Y/N)! I won't leave you! Never again! I promise you, I'll never leave your side again." she cried with joy. I smiled and hugged her tightly.
After a while, we pulled away and smiled at each other. Riko looked down at my arms and frowned. I noticed her frown and quickly hid my arms. She gently grabbed my wrist and looked at my arms again. "(Y/N).... was this because of me?" she whispered. I quietly nodded making her frown more. She gently kissed my now dried cuts and looked at me. "Promise me you won't cut again okay. If you ever feel sad, come and talk to me or anyone. I don't want to see you hurt." She said concerned. I nodded and kissed her forehead. "I promise," I said. She smiled and gave me a peck on the lips.
I blushed and looked away causing her to giggle. "You're so cute flustered," she cooed and kissed my cheek. "Let's go to my place and get your cuts cleaned up," she said, taking my hand. "Alright RiRi," I teased. She blushed and glared at me. I only grinned in response causing her to stop glaring and giggle.
The both of us walked back to her place and she helped me clean up my cuts. After that, we sat on her bed and just cuddled. "My friends are coming over later." She told me. I nodded and buried my face in her hair. She giggled and leaned against me.
When everyone finally arrived, I was swarmed with questions about how I was doing and how worried they were. I couldn't help but feel happy. Now that I have Riko by my side and possibly new friends, this could be a new start.
A start where I can be happy again alongside the one I love.