Broken Girls, Meet Broken Band

Dizzy (Maddie's POV)

I don't wanna talk about it
I don't wanna think about it
Because the last time that
I had these thoughts
I just kept going on about it
I don't wanna talk about it
I don't wanna think about it
And the worst part of it is

-Dizzy (Waterparks)

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Sara wrapped her arms around me, she wouldn't let go. I looked at her,

"lets go." I sighed,

"are you sure?" she questioned me.

"Yeah come on guys," I motioned for the guys to follow. They did as we walked to my house, I waited outside as Sara went in. She knocked on the door, Alex was behind me as I opened the door.

"Its okay, I'm here, we're here." I opened it to meet eye and eye with Luke, I can't. I tried to turn around and walk away but Jack made me stay forward. 

"Maddie?" everyone said together. They all hugged me minus for Luke who was in shock, I started. They got off me as I looked at Luke as he got up,

"look Luke if you don't want me I'll go back with Alex. I did this for Sara, not you or me." He wrapped his arms around me as my head went into his chest, I heard him cry as I started too.

"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have acted like that. I shouldn't have, no no no. I'm just happy you're back, so fucking happy." I cried into his shirt harshly as he broke, I turned to All Time Low and hugged each of them. I hugged Alex and Jack last, Alex whispered to me.

"Call me if you need anything, okay?" I nodded as everyone was shocked how Luke and I were 'better,' I just ran to my room. As I watched All Time Low drive to the airport, I only let Sara in. I don't want to be here still, I don't trust Luke and Arz. Arz hated me and vice versa, from the start she was a bitch to me and told me to kill myself. That sounds really nice right now, I want to. 

I told and convinced Sara I was okay, I wasn't. Luke wasn't sincere anymore. He was going to be a dick more, I locked my door and played loud music to block everyone out if they try to come in. I was done, I'm done with this world. I took a piece of paper and wrote a good sized paragraph on it, I slid it under the door after I went into the bathroom. I grabbed my shaving razor and broke it, I grabbed the razors. I grabbed the extra sleeping pills that I had due to my insomnia before I left that Luke made me get. I took about 5ish and grabbed the razor, I slid the thing under the door completely. I was sobbing, I was hurt. I was on Instagram earlier and got more hate and was questioned why I was out of the media, then I saw three of Luke's tweets. One before I left, the one while I was gone, and the one written about 4 hours ago. Everyone that hated me commented rudely on the first one. I cried, I grabbed my phone again and dialed Alex. I heard the ringer as I took more pills, I wanted to wake up from this nightmare by falling back asleep. I heard the voice of a concerned Alex as he repeated the same question over and over. I felt dizzy as I crawled into a ball and cried softly, feeling the pills kick in numbing my insides. I heard Jordan whistling as she shouted,

"what the hell is this?" I heard the papers open as she got the guys, the door handle wiggled as she shouted. "Guys! Maddie!! The door's locked!!" The door throbbed as I shut my eyes while Dizzy by Waterparks ended leading into Tidal Waves by All Time Low. All I could feel was n-u-m-b-n-e-s-s.

(Short chapter and cliffhanger -Kaitlyn )
(what the fuck kaitlyn you're not allowed to make me fucking cry like that- katie)