Worth A Second Look 2 (Chap.55.2-55, Epilogue)
Chapter Fifty Four
"Ouch- you okay?"
I recognized his voice immediately, and it made me want to just stare at the floor forever.
Feeling like crap, I wished the ground would just eat me alive.
I couldn't look at him. Shame was burning through me like poison.
Shame... hurt. LONGING...
He offered his hand to help me stand up, and it took me a couple of seconds before I took it. I continued to stare at the shiny floor of the airport even as I stood there, waiting.
I got my phone from him, and only then had I allowed myself to look him in the face. I couldn't see his eyes-he was wearing his favorite aviators.
He walked past me as he fixed his bag up. I opened my mouth to speak, and I wasn't able to stop myself from asking.
"You mad at me?" I croaked. He stopped, his mouth tightening into a straight, thin line.
"Are... are you mad at me?"
He laughed scathingly, as though I had just said the stupidest thing in the entire universe.
"What do I get out of it?" he asked.
I shrugged, attempting to smile as his words had hit a nerve.
"I... yeah. I didn't really-" :-\
"I've already learned not to waste stuff on anything worthless," he said. "All thanks to you."
"Have a safe trip."
He turned his back on me.
I cried right there. :-[
His words hurt...
And the worst part?
I knew I deserved them.
I saw Karissa materialize from nowhere. She gave Lance a small hug (which he reciprocated) and they started to talk.
Lance brought out his ticket... which completely matched hers.
She was going to Milan with him...
Kai was taking my place.
I turned away, refusing to see what else was in store for me.
Wow. Tangina lang.
How come everyone else's happy?
I felt the urge to curse as the universe seemed to be hell-bent on keeping me unhappy.
But then, I saw Gelo.
He stood beside our trunks, looking blankly into empty space.
I have to be there for him.
There are things more important than one's own happiness...
And in my case, it's him.
"Kurdaps! :) They're wishing us a good trip."