Nerd In Disguise

Ch. 27: finally found her

Twenty-Seven

"You know you can't shut me out forever, I'm your fiancé." I heard Kyle said. I kept quiet and focus on the task at hand, "Elaina seriously, talk to me."

I rolled my eyes and groan loudly, "Yes I heard you. I'm still engaged, now can you please leave me be so I can get any information to find my missing mother."

"You need to rest."

"No, I need to find my Mother."

"Elaina you-"

"Shut up Kyle!" I shouted, "I've lost my dad, my brother. My Mom is missing and I'm slowly losing Louisa's sanity. And if you can't see that all I need right now is your support, I don't see why I should stay engaged to you."

He look at me like I just lost my mind- which I honestly starting to think that I did. He close his eyes and sigh, "You're losing me while you're so busy looking for them."

I throw my hands in the air, "Well okay! If you can't see how important they are to me, I don't mind see you walking out that door and leaving me." I exclaimed and walk towards him and look him straight in his eyes, "You see Kyle, if we were to switch places and you were so busy with whatever you're doing I would have understood you. I would know it's important to you, so I'll stay by your side be patience. But you couldn't do the same to me because you want my world to revolve around you. Well newsflash Kyle, there are more important things and people in my life and you just gotta either deal with them, or leave."

We stood like that for the next few minutes, with him staring down at me. "So that's it then." I blink and look at him weirdly, "You've made your point. I'm not important enough for you. I'll leave." He muttered, shaking his head and turn around.

I take a step back and blink repeatedly, trying to let everything sink it.

Sometimes I said things without thinking and when it's already been said and done, only then I realised what I've done. Is it really too late to fix it?

I watch him leave. I watch him close the door behind him, not once looking back. I look down on hand, more specifically on my ring finger. Clearly, deep down I do care about him. I mean I'm wearing his ring for goodness sake! But I can't seem to move my leg to chase after him.

Everything is too much. Life is too much for me to handle.

I drop down to my knees and break down. Bringing my knees up and burying my face. My shoulder shake as I cry, covering my mouth with no hand so Louisa doesn't hear me cry in the next room.

I don't know how long I stay like that, crying my eyes out. But at that moment, I feel all the pain I've try to hide from everyone. I feel the pressure I had in life. I cry for what feels like forever.

•••

"Jack is waiting for you downstairs." Louisa told me as she walk in my room. "He looks really...um stress out."

I frown, "I think it's just work. I'll be there in a minute." I said and force a smile. I still feel like shit after hours of crying last night. I'm pretty sure my eyes is puffy and red from all that.