First things first
I got my first detention today and was crying for a long time
Tbh it's all bull and I may or may not be grounded but idk yet because my parents aren't home and I'm going to try my best not to get in trouble more than I already am though knowing my mom I probably still will. If I do, then that's the reason why. So wish me luck cause imma need it
JUICY INFORMATION! APPROACH WITH CAUTION
Okay. So there's this boy right. His name is Trenton, but his code name is 'said person'
So said person told @frankieandgeetrash that he likes me and he told me. So apparently said person is gonna ask me out tomorrow and I'm not sure what to say.
So I "talked" to Walmart boy about it and ugh I literally cannot even
So I told Mark to call me and we've been on the phone for a while and hung up a few minutes ago....
So all in all, Jackson isn't....necessarily....okay with it so to speak, but he's understanding. He knows it's best to move on, but it's obviously gonna be hard for the both of us..
The thing is, I liked said person at one point, then Jackson came along and...
But now, I'm not sure how I feel about him. Like I don't know if I like him or not
Half of me does and wants to say yes and the other half is still wrapped around Jackson and wants to say no, but, I don't know...
I mean, he's really sweet and caring. He's nice and easy to talk to and a shoulder to cry on. Literally.
For instance,
Today, after I got my detention paper, I was walking down the hallway to go to my class with him and 3ggen_ . So 3gg went up the stairs and my classroom is to the left down the hallway. So he walked with me about halfway and was like "hey we're gonna get through this together. We've got detention together right? You're not gonna be alone. It's okay. You're gonna be okay" and hUgGeD mE!!!!1!1!1!1!!! I mean I hugged him back ofc, bUT STILL
He sits by me every morning. He walks next to me on our way to and from breakfast with my frens. He sits behind me in second period. I see him every day in the hallway. He's there when I feel upset and uuuugggggghhhhh. I'm so frustrated.
I've got Jackson's "permission" so to speak. Not that I necessarily needed it, I just didn't want to leave him in the dark about things. We tell each other everything. He told me he kinda has a crush on this girl that kinda reminds him of me and I totally respect that. You can't change your emotions with the snap of a finger.
In saying that, I may say yes tomorrow...
But I'm never gonna forget Jackson. Never.
Wish me luck
Stay safe, stay alive |-/
