Emotions and Aspects

Chapter one: What is this existence

Hello my name is Carnal, well at least that is what I am aware my name is, see I am what is known as the control test from an experiment named the emotion experiments. See it is rather hard to explain the meaning of these tests and honestly I was only a few days old when the people started there physical tests as I was told they were called.

I know this must be a lot to intake but just know that I am 10 years old currently and the lab these experiments happened in does no longer exist... the lab is now in ruins.

"So then what names do we make for ourselves?" The staryu asked. "Why ask me Kuvan?" I inquired back as all us byproducts sat in a circle in the only other home we know.

"Grrr you know why!" Kuvan yelled at me. Kuvan's aspect is anger meaning he is always pissed.

If you wanna know what my aspect is well you will be waiting for a long time because I have no idea what my aspect is. "Hey we know your aspect is anger but maybe use your brain kuvan... we exist but it isnt like purposes make us much different." The quilava stated emotionlessly.

"Yeah and your aspect is nihilism... meaning mr downer your solution doesnt help us either whess." Kuvan got grumpy again.

We honestly were getting nowhere but all I felt like doing is letting my questions of what my purpose could be wander around in my mind. Finally the arguing and my thought process was broken as soon as our leader of sorts, that being a shiny vaporeon named tiberon, spoke up. "Look our goal in mind is to find what way our aspects shall describe our lives and our fates. The sacrifices we make to even continue are something that we must use to find our pathway." Tiberon spoke and the group of us agreed with her but then again nobody would question what she said as tiberon is quite strong.

"Yeah but I don't think I even have an aspect." I spoke up but tiberon just rolled her eyes as if she didnt care. "Your aspect is something you discover on your own. You are the control meaning your existence is why we are the way we are." Tiberon spoke bluntly but I just questioned my mind even more.

The group meeting had finished and then I decided to don my cloak and place my purple scarf on and travel a little ways away. "The flower meadow looks pretty today and quiet as usual. A place I can think." I told myself as I pulled my hood down and breathed in the calming air.

It was something I had done a lot. I liked venturing out here to the meadow it feels like it helps me think as well as put my mind at ease of what my aspect could be. "But then again what is my aspect? What is my existence meant to mean?" I questioned myself however due to the wind having such a calming effect on me I didnt become stressed like I do when I pose these questions when back at the cave.

I continued my thoughts as the breeze picked up a little and before I could stand up to walk back to the cave something picked me up, as a riolu I suppose I must be easily liftable, I looked up and saw what did pick me up. 'A fearow... uh oh.' I thought in my mind as the fearow kept flying further and further away from the meadow but I still felt calm.

Under this kind of issue most would be freaking out however for me all I felt was inquisitive. "Hey um so are you gonna use me as food?" I asked the fearow and heard a caw that sounded like a laugh.

"A freak like you... ew no way would I feed you to my young. You however will make a useful selling option." The fearow stated to me and something about the term freak didnt fit well with me.

My eyes glowed red and I had gotten way more angry, I charged my aura into my paws and I think the talons holding me had begun to loosen and eventually dropped me. "Gah! My catch!" The fearow yelled and as I fell through the sky I launched a red aura sphere at the fearow and as it struck its left wing the bird went into a barrel roll spinning towards the ground faster than I was falling through the air.

"Well shit this is not good." I told myself as my eyes changed colour to green. Cmon carnal think. Gotta figure out something and fast.

'Is this my existence? Is getting into these sort of issues what will be my aspect?' I questioned in my mind until I realised I wasnt still falling towards the ground.

"Huh?" I questioned and heard a laugh. "Nice falling and thanks for taking care of that fearow... he had been a problem to us for a while." The pokemon told me, now I saw a good look at it it had been a swellow that saved my bacon, I nodded back and my eyes became blue.

"So what is your name?" The swellow asked me after we landed. "My name is Carnal. What is your name?" I asked the swellow and he groomed his wing.

"My name is Achelo." Achelo posed a little and my eyes changed to yellow and he chuckled. "So you have quite cool eyes mate... how do they do that?" Achelo inquired about my eyes and I chuckled. "I cant really explain it myself." I scratched the back of my head as I laughed a little.

"You are kinda funny but that is cool. So even though we just met would you like to follow me to my little base. I am trying to be an adventurer and honestly I'm all on my own so maybe even though we just met do you wanna join me?" Achelo asked me and it just made me ask in my mind again.

Is this my existence... could this be my reason? To adventure with this swellow?

Who knows but these questions must have an answer.

"Sure I will join you... who knows this may lead to my answers." I smiled and Achelo chuckled.
"You are an odd pokemon carnal but I think that will make this all the better." Achelo told me as we went back to his base.