Sandhir's OS Diary

broken heart (b)

Sanyus pov:

6 years....its been 6 six I got shifted to Arlington.
It was the worst decision I took to forget randhir.
I never forgot randhir. ..i never forgot   my love.
Is that possible to forget ur love even if he is not meant to be urs.

6 years back i shifted in US to supress my feelings for randhir.
I even stayed away from my parents which was worst decision of mine because I was missing  them like hell.

More than randhir I loved my parents.
But just because of randhir I was hurting my parents.
No....m not blaming randhir for that.
Infact it's my fault that I ran from the reality like a coward.

But trust me friends,  heart break sucks.
It makes ur life miserable when ur feelings are true for someone.

But.....nothing can be done now.
Randhir is not mine now.
He is married to ridhima.
May he is a father of her kids too.

Anyways leave about that.....today I m standing in front of my house.
Yes in India. ...finally I decided to move on in life

For how many days I'll stay still.
Even i need a companion for my life.

Even if I can't love him back but atleast I'll get a companion for lifetime.

Mum has fixed me with some guy.
He is 30 & me 29.

I know it's too late to marry.
But u know my parents right.
How can they see their only daughter remaining unmarried.

It's their dream to see me getting married .
I kept on avoiding about marriage last 6 years but now it was high time I should come over randhir.
We are not meant to be together right!

So m here sitting near my maasi after a day relaxing after my journey.

She had brought that proposal for me.

"Sunn anju ladke ka pehla byaah ho chuka hai" maasi spoke and my mom was shocked.

I was neutral.
Anyhow I have to marry someone.
Whether it's a divorcee or a widower .

"Sunn le puri baat anju" maasi stopped my mom before she could reject the guy.

"Shaadi ke pehle ho dinn usse pata chala ki uski biwi pregnant hai.
Kisi aur kaa paas chipane ke liye usne shaadi ki par bechari ka plan ulta pad gya.
Tab ke tab usne uss ladki ko ghar se phenk diya" maasi completed.

My mom sighed.
"Par kya woh sanyu ko apnaega?"   My mom was tensed.

"Sunn uski maa meri sabse achhi saheli hai .
Sanyu khush rahegi waha" maasi said and I interrupted.

"Agar sab kuch sahi lage aapko toh main shaadi ke liye taiyyar hu" I stood up and went upstairs making my mom n maasi smile.

Reaching upstairs I took a paper and started writing my past on that.
I didn't wanted my husband to remain in dark.
I don't wanted to cheat him.
Already his first wife cheated on him.
I'll never do that.

It's true that I love randhir but from now i wanted to give this new man his happiness back.

Soon everything got fixed and now I was standing in front of the mandap in a ghunghat.

I never met my would be as he was a workaholic.
After his heart break he got involved in his work.
Told u before heart break sucks.

Soon i was tied in a conjugal bond as soon as my husband tied mangalsutra around my neck.
And irony was my husband's name was same as my love.
Randhir!

After many rituals in that ghunghat I was taken to my room .
I really wanted to throw that somewhere.

But controlled myself as it was ritual just for few hours then I'll be free.

I took out the letter and kept under the milk glass and went to freshen up.

My husband didn't came yet.
He existed on earth or not...i wondered because I never heard his voice.

After getting freshen I came out wiping my face only to find a tall figure standing.
His back facing me.
My husband read my letter....i thought.

"Woh....woh....main aapse yeh baat khud kehne wali thi par aap kabhi mujhse mile high nahi.
Toh socha ki letter likh du" I said nervously.

"Do u still love him?" He asked in a heavy voice.

I knew this voice.....my mind alarmed.

"Woh....i....main....." i fumbled.

"Yes or no " he asked.

Again I felt same.

I know this man.

"Ye. ...yes" I replied honestly.
"But I'll never cheat on u....promise" unknowingly a drop of tear trickled down.
I don't like people judging me without even knowing me.

"Pehle kyu nahi bataya sanyu" he said and I froze on the spot.

My love....my randhir was standing in front of me.....
He was crying.

I took few steps back to grasp the truth.

"Ran....randhir " I shivered.
It means ridhima was cheating randhir.

"Kyu nahi bola pehle tune......" randhir wiped his tears.

I started crying their itself holding the door.
I can't answer him.
I can't tell him how I m feeling right now finding him so close to me.

"Shaadi ke turant baad chod ke gayi mujhe.
Koi nahi tha mere saath jab main tut gya bikhar gaya tha.
Jin he dost maanta tha unhone hi sabse bada dhoka diya.
Aur tu....tu bhaag gyi " Randhir was saying this taking his steps forward.

"Kyu gyi tu sanyu...why" rd looked in my eyes.
I didn't met his eyes.

"Kya karti yaha reh kar. ...tut gyi thi....nahi dekh paayi tujhe kisi aur ke saath" I was crying & sniffing.

"Toh ab kyu aayi Haa. ...itne saal baad......aur apna pyaar bhul ke kisi aur ke saath shaadi ke liye ready bhi ho gyi.
Itna kamjor tha tera pyaar" Randhir jerked me harshly.

"Mere pyaar ke liye main mom dad ko tadapta  nahi dekh sakti thi randhir.
Unhone toh mujhse tab pyaar kiya tha Jabse mujhe unhone dekha bhi nahi tha.
Mera pyaar unse jyaada important nahi tha.
Yes i loved u......but not more than my parents.
Because they supported me when I was alone and broken " I cried and next moment I was tightly hugged by my husband.

That night we shared our pain together in form of our tears.
That night was not just breezy but cloudy as our eyes never left those tear drops while expressing out pain and broken heart.

~~~~the end**

Boring end I know.
But instead writing steamy part this was what I came with.

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