reminisce.

epilogue

"Today's the day," I chanted to myself whilst looking for something to wear. Today was the day, the day of the reunion, and surprisingly, I was very excited. "Okay, this is ugly, this is old, I wore this last weekend, eh, I guess this'll do." I pulled out a similar dress that was in my dream. A cheetah print dress and my red heels.

I ran myself a small bubble bath two hours before the thing actually started. I planned on leaving about 15 minutes before, and this'll give me enough time to just relax while bathing. The warm water was up to the exact place I liked it to be, and the bubbles were just enough. I stripped from my nightgown and dipped into the lukewarm water. "Ahh," I instantly responded to the bath.

I began imagining what tonight would consist of. Dancing, fun, memories, love maybe? Rayan was the first thing on my mind, and I was hoping to see Dwayne tonight too. Maybe they'll be there, I hope they are. 

The time passed quickly, and after dressing and putting on my favorite perfume, it was already 5:45. 15 minutes before the reunion started. My heart began beating faster and faster; it was time. My heels clicked down my wooden stairs, the ones Dwayne left his shoes on. I smiled at how vividly I remembered my dream.

Remembering to lock my front door, just in case someone else decided to peep in, I unlocked my car and began driving off. Frank Ocean's "Nostalgia, Ultra' boomed throughout my car, putting me in ultimate nirvana, which is exactly what I needed during this ride. 

"i should say

and you should hear

i've loved

i've loved the good times here

i've loved our good times here," 

It reminded me of my high school days. The days when I was constantly called ugly, made fun of because of my height, and cried all nights. It never was a day off. No one wanted to be friends with me, no one wanted to give me a chance at all. Tears began dripping down my face at the reminiscing thoughts, ruining my winged eyeliner on both of my eyes. 

Quickly fanning them away, I turned into GWHS's parking lot. Turning off the car, I wiped both of the sides of my face, breathing in and out. I was here with ruined makeup. I grabbed the eyepencil from my purse (thank God I didn't forget my purse), and pulled down my mirror.

It didn't take me long at all, but finally, at exactly 6:07, I was ready. I took another deep breath in, and hopped out my car. Walking to the front doors, I decided to let go of all my insecurities and simply, have a good time tonight. Be with somebody, or simply, be with myself. I wasn't ugly anymore, I could make friends now. I didn't need to reembark on the past; it's way over.

As I made my way to the front doors, I closed my eyes, taking another deep breath inside, and opening the double doors. 

It was time.

 -

"Kay Kay, I promise I will come and pick you up tomorrow so we can hang out, but I gotta go somewhere very special tonight. And see someone very special." I said into the phone, while listening to Kay Kay whine. It was a long pause, before she asked, "Can we go to Dave and Buster's?" I sighed, and nodded my head. "Yes, we can go. And you can have as many tokens as you want." "YAY! OKAY BYE RAYAN! LOVE YOU!" She hung up, and I smiled.

I looked into the mirror, playing with the dreads I had put into a bun last night. Running my shower water, I quickly laid out a simple outfit; a short sleeve all white shirt, with dark jeans, and my burgundy Doc Martens (lol basic or nah). I stepped into the shower, rinsing myself off while thinking about tonight.