I did something bad
Really bad
I wanna say it's an accident....
But it wasn't
I knew what I was doing
I knew deep down this wasn't going to fix anything
But I did it anyway.....
I slept with my best friends boyfriend
I know, how caliche
They'd been together for about 7 years
They were one of those couple who made you believe in love
She had blonde hair and blue eyes, and he was a typical high school jock
I wasn't drunk and neither was he
It wasn't a party and they weren't on a break
In fact I think it was their anniversary
I lost my best friend, the only person I had left
She was there when my mom died
She was there when my dad got arrested
She was there when I had mental breakdown in middle of class
She was honestly the reason I been alive this long
Why? You ask
Why would I put myself in such a position to the lose the most important person in my life
Why didn't i think
I have no excuse
I could have prevented it but I didn't
He was there, and so was I
He was bored and I was lonely
He wanted some ass
And I just wanted know how it felt
I went 16 years of my life without a boy touching me
I've never know what it was like to be loved
What it was like to have someone constant, wanting you despite your flaws
I don't know why he did it
They seemed like a perfect couple
They were pretty and attractive
Popular and rich I guess after you see the same person for 7 years you get bored
It isn't nice constantly being jealous of your best friend
It isn't nice doing your best and doing everything you possibly could
Only to be known as Jessica's friend
She had everything, a loving boyfriend,
A pretty face, friends, money and most of all family. She had family
She had her parents, who adored her more than anything
And a person can only take so much before they snap
