Poetic Monaé • Tupac Shakur

Chapter 98

|Monaé's P.O.V|

"-My mind a endless tempest of confusion
Never knowin if I'm winnin or if I'm losin
Will it ever cease;
Will i find true peace
Of mind, in this head of mine;

Another day goes on full of confusion.
Malice, hate towards myself;
About things i cant change
And paths people are choosin
But I bottle it up, hide it, and keep it movin;

Contemplation of ending it all;
Sometimes by myself at night I bawl
But with him, he keeps me strong
And that's enough for me to hold on.' I jolt down the letters into my notebook, but pause when I hear the door knock again.

"I AINT COMING!" I shouted through the door after the tenth time, we're all meant to be going for a meeting with Dre and suge about some of our last tour dates but fuck that, I feel like shit, my belly hurts like hell!, I got a headache! AND me and pac still arguing so I ain't tryina see that nigga...or suge for that matter, I ain't got it in me today to be standing up to these punks!...sometimes I wish a female was around, niggas are too much sometimes.

"OKAY BUT YOU IGHT?" I heard kadafi call back as I stayed in bed, curled up in my duvet.

"MY STOMACH HURTS LIKE HELL I AINT ONE HUNNI!" I called back through the door, and I ain't lying neither coz normally I don't cancel busyness for nobody...but I just can't do all this today.

"YOU NEED ANYTHING?" He asked sweetly making me smile a little, kadafi really my lil bro.

"NAH! BUT THANKS" I called back.

"IGHT WELL PAGE ME IF YOU DO SIS, PEACE" he replied.

"PEACE BRO" I said, yawning straight afterwards. I ain't got no sleep last night either...see this why I hate arguing with tupac, I don't get no fuckin sleep!...and plus we both stubborn as fuck...ugh.

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|Monaé's P.O.V|

"-man that piece of walkin diabetes ain't to be trusted, lemme tell you that!" Eazy said through the phone as I sighed. I decided to call E and vent to him, coz he the only cat I'm close wid dat know shit about suge n Dre that I don't.

"Exactly!" I kissed my teeth, turning onto my other side, trying to ignore my stomach pains.

"Did He really say that shit to you?" He asked sounding a little shocked, referring to when suge threatened me yesterday.

"Mhmm, and if I'm gonna be real?...it feels like he gonna do somethin about it" I stated, licking my chapped lips.

"Naé, just listen to me when I say this...play it coo ight? Take shit slow, keep yo eye on Sugar bear and yo mans...and that lil studio gangsta Dre, coz you might think suge is captain crazy but Dre his lil side bitch...just don't trust em ight?" Easy said, making me chuckle when he called suge sugar bear.

"Ight E, I feel you, thanks for the advice man...everyone else out here trippin!" I chuckled as he did the same.

"Ain't a thang baby!, but listen I gotta go pick up tomica-" I cut him off as I started to laugh, thinking of her. Now SHE was one sketchy bitch!.