“I think it’s the right thing for her to do, and it won’t be forever right?” He turns that question in my direction. I nod  “It’s just for a little while, and then she will come back to us.”

He focuses on me, “But where will you?”

“NATE! I can’t believe you are with her on this crazy idea! We can’t just let her be on her own, especially not now!” Maggie yells; sounding frustrated. I walk over to her and hug her not knowing what else to do.



“Mag it’s not forever. I promise. I thought I would transfer to another school, and when I’m done, I will come back to you.”

Nate holds Maggie’s hand and listens to my plans.  “I’ve already applied to a couple, last night.  I’m waiting for an answer. Even if I knew where I was going right now, I wouldn’t tell you.”  Maggie looks hurt.  “If Jake commands you for some weird reason, I don’t want him to be able to find me. I love you, and I email you every week, maybe even more, I promise.” I try to help her see that this is the only option, and help her understand that I need to do this. I am going to move on with my life like a normal person.

“Okay. But that is really long time!” She whines, and pulls me into a hug.

“I know. I’m going to miss you like crazy,” I say feeling like I am going to cry again.

I could easily talk myself into staying, but I know that if I didn’t do this, I will never get on with my life.  But, those two are my life. When I first got here, they became my family. We have never spent time away from each other, since that day in spring eight years ago.

I will be saying goodbye to my family. The two people who would love me no matter what and would always had my back, but I knew I had to do this.

“When are you leaving?” Nate asks joining our hug.

“Soon, I hope. They will all give me their answers tomorrow,” I say, taking a step back from them and slowly sitting down again.  They keep standing in the same spot, just looking at me. I can't imagine my every day without them. These past few years, I had finally gotten a place where I was safe and had friends. A place I knew, and I had good memories. I had a home.

Last night, I had so many times thought that I could just stay. I could maybe find another way out of this heartache, so I wouldn't have to face Jake everyday. But then, even if I see him, I would hear about him. I would hear the girls talk about him, to hear the rumors.  I wouldn't be able to just ignore them, not listen, and not care about what was going on in his life. Right now, at this moment, looking at them, I am having the same conflict, just wanting everything to be back to normal.

“Okay. But can’t we visit, and each other? I don’t think I will be able to handle not speaking with you for years!” Maggie asks with pleading eyes, pulling me back from my wondering thoughts.

“No, we can email.  Letters are attached to addresses, phones can be traced, and visiting is out of the question.  We’ll figure something out.  I don’t want Jake to find me, and I don’t’ want you to be in the position of being the ones that tell him.” I say.

“Okay deal,” she says holding out her and shaking on it.

Checking my email this morning, I have my answer. I am going to California. It’ll be warm, but not close to my two best friends. Classes start on Monday, leaving me two days to check in as a visitor to a new pack.

But, today I have a lunch appointment with Louis. I have to tell him in person I am leaving. I owe him that much, and I don’t think I could live with myself if I didn’t do it. His lovely wife usually joins us from time to time, but I asked him if we could meet alone.

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