Chapter 21

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Jin haven't been giving up on talking to me. I don't know what will make him stop. I just hate him so much for trying to talk to me like everything is okay.

If he don't stop I'll have to tell my dad. I hate seeing his face the most. Just the thought of Jin annoys me. I can't wait to graduate and move far away from him.

Eunji and Mark have gotten incredibly close. I'm happy for her. She deserves to be close to Mark and make sure he'll love her before they get marry. I'm glad they are getting alone and talking more than how they were. They aren't awkward around each other no more.

I got to school and Jin came up to me. "Sowon. I need to talk to you." He said dragging me to the field.


"Is there no way you'll like me again?" He asked as he stare sadly into my eyes.

"No there's not! I told you. Why don't you ever listen I told you everything you do is useless." I look away before he can look into my eyes.

"I don't want to give up on you. On us. It just doesn't make any sense as to why you would give us up..."

"Just give up because I did."

"I know you did but I don't want to. Why can't I fight for us?"

"So why do you need to talk to me? Hurry because I really don't want to listen." I said.

"It's really meaningless talking to you ain't it?" He said.

"You barely figured out? Listen if you don't leave me alone I'll tell my dad." I said.

"What will he do?"

"Look I already met someone who my dad likes and I like him. If I want to build something with him you can't be bothering me." I said.

"You're lying!" He held onto my hands so I won't be able to leave this conversation.

"I am not! I'm not a liar like you!" I move my hands away from his grip as he tried to grab my hand again. "Don't touch me again with your hands. It's nasty and I don't like one bit of it."

"So I really don't matter to you no more?" He was hurt. His tears escape his eyes as they rolled down his cheeks.. "I don't matter anymore Sowon?"

"No! Just like me. You left me waiting thinking when I will ever matter to you! I waited and waited and god Jin I few more for you and not one bit did I ever matter to you!"

"It took me a while but I realized you do matter! And now you're all that matters! Everything about you matters so much to me."

"No I don't! Stop lying to yourself it makes me sick. If you don't want to disappear from my sight then at least stop talking to me." He back hugged me as I tried to leave. He hugged me so tightly I almost couldn't breathe. "Let me go Jin."

"No, this will be the last time I get to hold you before someone else do." He cry in between his words.

"Why are you even crying. Stop it with your tears." I wasn't having it.

"I'm leaving school I promised, I'll go far away from you. So you won't have to see my face." His sniffles were the only I heard.

"Yes go as far as you can. I never want to see you again! The far the better."

"You won't care if I move?"

"I told you no!" I release myself from his hug. I turn to look at him as he walk closer to me as I move away.

"Sowon I Lov-" he couldn't finished his sentence before I slap him.

"Save it Jin along with your tears. Just stop bothering me I hate it so much. You don't love me. You're playing yourself." I said walking away. He ran to me and hug me tightly. "You're so annoying!" I shouted hitting him. "Let me go!"

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