I couldn't believe what I just heard, heart attack? But, I was just speaking with her an hour ago. I grabbed my coat and keys and Rod followed rapidly behind me, shit it's a long drive from Miami to Chicago. I was a nervous wreck. My palms became sweaty, and my legs shook from anxiousness. "God, please keep my mother safe" I prayed quietly to myself. I was so close to happiness, so close. I've dreamed to be this happy, and here it is being snatched away from me. I'll never make it through this 19 hour drive, it takes us 2 days to get to Chicago, and we're trying to push it in one night. I'm stressed out. I called my father and asked for updates. He told me she was fine at the moment and doctors were running tests. I became a little relieved, but I won't be satisfied until I get there. We decided to drive half the way and continue the rest if the route in the morning, but I couldn't get any sleep.
I was drowned in nightmares of my past life. Dreams about when I was a big girl, almost being raped. Being abused by my foster mother, all the hurtful and painful memories, but no good ones. I woke up in a cold sweat. My body trembled in fear. I just can't take this shit. I can't take it anymore. Nothing ever comes out good in my life, when something begins to go right something else comes and make it worse all over again.
I laid back down in the hotel bed, and stared out at the wall. Soon I drifted off to sleep and dreamt my mother passed. I woke up and cried, I had to make it to Chicago before she left and I had to go now. I woke up and through on some clothes and woke up Rod. "Come on, wake up let's go. You can sleep in the car" I rushed.
I drove the rest of the 7 hours until I made it it the hospital. I asked the woman at the front desk what room number Danyella Scott is held in. She searched the computer and escorted us to room 34 E. I knocked and opened the door and saw my mother lying there and my father sitting next to her as he gripped her hand and looked at her sleep peacefully. God, I hope I'm not to late.
"Oh, Symphony, stop crying please" I asked hopelessly. I bounced my baby girl up and down and my arms trying to get her to calm down. "Symphony, it's 3 in the morning. Mommy is tired" I spoke. I rocked her and gave her a bottle. She finally stopped crying and I laid her down in the crib next to my bed.
Finally, I can find peace with sleep. I snuggled comfortably in my bed and tried going to sleep. Not long after I heard a knock at the front door. Who the fuck is at the door at three in the morning? I through the covers back angrily and looked out the peep hole shocked at what I saw.
I opened the door and covered myself completely by my robe, clinging on the sides so I can be protected from the cool Chicago winds. "Hey Pam, are you busy"? Terrence asked standing with his hands in his pockets. "Uh, nah, come in I guess" I stated widening the door so he could step in. "Pam, I wanna apologize" he began as he sat on the sofa next to me. "I need to be a better father, I need to be in my child's life" he finished.
I nodded my head, and then yawned. "Why'd you come so late"? I questioned. "I mean, you never wanted to hear me out" he defended. "No, I'm saying why'd you come at 3 in the morning"? I assured him.
He looked down at his shoes. "To be honest I've been waiting here for hours. I just didn't have the courage it come up here. I just want a chance Pam. I know in the beginning I was a dog. I was wrong man, I want it make things right. You know" he pleaded.
I was about to respond but Symphony started to cry again. "Is that the baby? Can I see it? He asked becoming wide eyed. I giggled and shook my head 'yes'. I picked her up, and brought her to him. "You can hold her, her name is Symphony" I explained.
"Wow, she looks just like you. Hey, I'm your daddy" he said grabbing onto her hands. He lifted her up and kissed her face. A tear rolled from his eyes and he held her close. "I won't leave you again, I promise baby girl" he told her.
"Bridget, Come on! Damn! You know it's a long drive down to Miami and I'm Trynna get there by Thursday so everything can be situated for the game" I yelled through the house. "Shutup, I'm coming damn. I don't know why we're driving anyway. Why can't we fly out"? She questioned.
I chuckled at her pure ignorance and grabbed the remaining bags. "Ready to see your brother play TeeTee"? I asked as I grabbed Felicity's suitcase and put it in the trunk. She smiled big and shook her head 'yes'. I laughed and picked her up and gave her a bug hug. "Alright, alright" she giggled. I placed her down and watched her run to get in the car on the other side.
"Alright, everybody. Got everything? The sook their heads yes and we pulled off. I lived going down to Miami. It's huge and beautiful and filled with different kinds of people.
Your bond to see somebody famous, and trying to have Felicity and Bridget keep calm is a hassle. I do it though, everytime.
Me and my son, Rod, been hanging out a lot as well. I've met he team as well and we hit it off real good. Not what I expected. You'd assume they'd be all stuck up and shit but their actually good people. This big glamorous life ain't get fuck up their heads, they know where they come from and I respect that.
Me and Rod been playing golf, catching up at the gym, and having a good time. I might be old but, I can still do everything someone young can do.
We reached the half point line and checked into the hotel. I got our bags and sat them in the room and went to sleep. I was exhausted. Before I went into a deep slumber I called Rod and let him know we should be there by tomorrow afternoon.
I held my baby girl in my arms and I can't explain the feeling I felt. I was overwhelmed. She was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. Her almond brown skin tone all the way to her curly hair and brown eyes.
"She's beautiful" I assured her. "Thank you" she said. I can't take my eyes off of her. She smiled and so did I. "Pam" "yeah"?
"I want to be in my little girls life. I wanna be a father" I managed to say. She huffed and stood up. "Terrence don't- I cut her sentence short. "Pam seriously. I know I messed up in the past but I'm here now please, we-we can get married and we can start a family. Do this thing the right way. Starting by telling Rod about this" I told her.
She swallowed hard and stepped back. "I'll think about this all" she said "Rod's gone freak out" I told her. She shook her head and laughed. We laughed together and I kissed my baby's forehead. "Daddy loves you" I told her.
Pam picked her up and put her back in her crib. She came back in the room and I stood up. Sticking my hands in my pocket I walk away. I turned back round and hugged her.
"I'm serious, don't keep me waiting to long. I love you" she stood there with her head down. I walked out and headed back home. I hope she gives me a chance.
I walked over to the bed and let a tear fall. I grabbed her hand and sat next to the bed. She opened her eyes and looked over at me and smiled. "What you crying for baby"? She asked me. I smiled and let another tear roll. "I'll be fine, I'll be ready for the game Friday" she assured me.
I was about to say something but the nurse came in. "Knock knock, I'm nurse Betty. I'm here to give you your antibiotics" see announced. "Hey doc, do you think she'll be ok"? I questioned. "Oh honey she'll be fine, it was a minor attack she'll be out by tomorrow morning" she told us. I smiled and held her hand tighter.
"I told you" she told me.
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