Poetry

That feeling...

this is a poem I wrote about a few days ago. things just haven't really been...all that great. so this is where these poems come from.

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-Ash

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Have you ever had that feeling,

When you're around certain people

And you feel better:

Less lonely, and more happy?

Now think of those people, right now...

Am I one of them?

Have I or will I ever be?

I used to think of you that way,

Guess I was too naïve to realize,

But at the same time... it always was you...

You were the one: that hurt me most,

Would make me cry, tear me apart and just

Completely destroy me,

And somehow for some reason,

I can't - I couldn't leave...

It's almost as if I like all the pain,

But now I feel no more,

Nothing, nothing at all

Just- everything's gone, there's nothing left.

I've been devoured by a monster

You, you are that monster, but

I do not fear,

That I also care about;

I, I've been nothing but a toy.

Nothing but something, an object to just

Amuse you, to serve you, to please you

Everything, for you, but

Never being good enough,

Cared too much now I care so little,

Everything I've done has always been for you, but none of it matters,

Never really know what does to you (anymore)

... (Do I?)

There are too many thoughts,

Unanswered questions,

"What if's" and what could, would and may have been,

But none of it matters, I guess

I'll always be a friend, a best friend,

Always there,

Always caring,

Always going to listen and understand,

But, that's just it,

It's all I'll ever be, we'll ever be,

Just - best friends,

Won't we?