Burn;
Standing there looking at myself in the bathroom mirror, in the pitch black. The trouble running through my veins. The alcohol running wild in my system not doing the job I wanted it to do. I wanted to feel numb so I couldn't feel the pain any longer. Seeing the disappointment in my eyes again I realise I have once again failed and I could feel every feeling at once.
I walked away from the mirror wanting to go home, but I couldn't. I didn't have a home to go back to. I don't have a family to go back to. I have nothing. I'm alone.
I start to think to myself, whats the point. Why do I even bother trying. I try so hard to be the best student, the nice girl, the sweet and innocent Kayla, But thats not me, I'm not innocent. I have my past and it follows me everywhere.
I walk out of the bathroom yet again, no longer buzzed. I turn my attention to Stephanie, I watch as she takes small sips from her cup of water I got her. Everyone has left now, the only people that are still here are the friends to the guy who hosted the party, including the gu y who helped me earlier.
I haven't gained the courage to go up to him and speak to him, mainly because I will just talk gibberish to him and majorly embarrass myself. So I haven't bothered. He's not my type anyway.
He's the sweet kind, the kind that brings you flowers and makes you feel special. I'm the type to drag people down with me, make them do things they would of never done before, I'm the one your parents hate.
I started to think maybe it would be different, maybe he would change me.
Burn;
Sorry this is so short. I just really wanted to give you guys a new update. I will be updating again in a weeks time. So stay tuned xx
First published ; 23rd February 2017
Latest update ; 12th March 2019