I've been wondering
Wondering why i shiver everytime i hear your name
I've been wondering why i feel the way i do
I finally found it out
I'm scared
I'm scared of what you're going to say
I'm scared of hearing what i don't want to hear most
I'm scared of you
Most of all
I'm scared of the pain you are going to bring me
You are the source of my pain and will always be
You are my first
But after this
I'm not sure I'm going to have another
Everytime i see your face
Everytime i hear your voice
Everytime you are near me
My emotions run wild
I'm angry
I'm happy
I'm sad
I'm pained
I'm anxious
I'm confused
But most of all
I'm scared
You have hurt me and you will continue hurting me
For that reason
I'm so scared to get up and face the truth
But I'm not the kind of person who lies to herself
I know how it is
I know things will end up badly for me
Then why am i continuing this
Why am i letting you hurt me
Why can't i stop falling for you
It's because
I'm scared