Bully! cartman x suicidal! reader ((EDITED))

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~Warning swearing, bad spelling.
This story will contain suicidal thoughts and self harm..if you dont feel comfortable with this sort of stuff please do not read. If you do struggle with this, its best to talk to someone about it because i know how you feel, you are not alone in this. Thankyou and you are beautiful 😙😙


EDITOR'S NOTE~ 

For those who live in America there is the suicide prevention line and for Australian's there's Access line. Please understand that both Author and myself have been through self harm and are still going through it all, just remember there are always light's in the darkness, there are people that love you and will fight for you 😙😙



~Your POV~

I faced death every day, I pleaded for him to take me away from the cruel world but whenever he agrees to take me... I wake up.

The voices in my head start to talk as I open my eyes, I slowly get up and looked in the mirror... the sight made me want to puke, my hair was fuzzy and had knots everywhere, my skin was pale, my bags were showing under my eyes and the lasted nights cuts were sore.

I went to have a shower, got dressed in skinny jeans and an oversized hoodie to hide my cuts, I brush my hair making it look decent, and put my makeup on. I quickly slipped on my (f/c) converse and grabbed my bag with my phone and earphone in it and ran out to door, to the bus stop.

While I waited for the bus, I saw my bully walk over to me. "Hey bitch, still looking ugly and fat I see..." he said grabbing my shoulder and making me look at him

"(y/n) what are you?" He said smirking, knowing what I had to say.

"I'm a worthless piece of shit that doesn't deserve to live" I said looking down, trying to keep my tears from falling.

"That's right slut and don't you ever forget that" he let go of me and pulled me into the snow, I slowly get up and brushed the little flakes of snow off me. The bus arrived, I quickly get on and sat in my spot at the front.

The bus came to a halt "GET THE FUCK OFF THE BUS!!" The bitch of a bus driver yelled, I was the first one off and I ran to my locker. My locker was graffiti with horrible words,

'bitch'


'Slut'


'Go die'


'Fat'


'Ugly'


'Dumb'


'Waste of space'


'Loser'


'Useless'


And some other words, I started tearing up and ran for the bathrooms. I cried in the stall, trying to not make a noise, I slowly reach into my back pocket and pull out a razor from a sharpener.

I pull up the my sleeve, to reveal millions of scars... some fresh and some old. I place the razor on my skin and slide it across my wrist, blood was already beading out of my new wound.

I leave the bathroom with 20 more cuts then I did when I walked in, the voices were getting louder by the second. My class mates were still roaming the halls, I see a familiar brunette teen looking straight at me, he started walking towards me with an evil smirk. He grabbed my wrist, and pulled up the sleeve.

"Not only a slut and bitch but a suicidal freak...go die then whore" he laughed in my face, I was on fire... I raised my hand and slapped him across the face.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!! YOU TELL ME TO GO DIE AND OTHER HORRIBLE NAMES WHEN WITH IS YOUR FAULT, I GET BULLIED EVERY FUCKING DAY AND COME HOME TO FEEL LIKE SHIT, ALL THESE CUTS ON MY ARMS, LEGS, STOMACH AND ANKLES ARE BECAUSE OF YOU!!! WELL GUESS WHAT CARTMAN YOU GET YOUR WISH IM GOING TO GO AND COMMIT SUICIDE AND THE BLOOD WILL BE ON YOUR HANDS AND MOST OF ALL I CAN'T BELIEVE I LIKED YOU!!" I said with tears running down my face and I ran out of school to the tower of peace.

Once I was at the top, I look down and took a deep breath because it might be my last, when I was just about to jump off, a hand grabbed my arm. I look at the person and it was Eric, with tears in his eyes. "(Y/n) please I'm so sorry for hurting you, in so sorry I bullied you and called you names... the truth is I really like you... I didn't know why I felt that feeling towards you so I bullied you... it was killing me, I wanted to stop as soon as I did it but you already hated me so I bullied you" he said still crying

"Cartman I had no idea...that you feel that way towards me but you can't erase these scars" I looked at him

"I know... I should have never said that to you, you are beautiful and I love you" he said blushing and walking towards me

"Cartman I love you too and forgive you but hurt me again I'll put a bullet in your head" I said blushing, Eric laughed and gave me a hug. I let go off him and kissed him, he kissed back, love in strange.

~soz if it sucked~

3~ +A 

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