I don't know what to think right now. I'm angry, I'm hurt, I'm confused. I know people make mistakes but why walk out on your own family and come back nearly 20 years later like everything's okay?
I'm in a emotional stage right now. I just rode in silence as Janelle rubbed on my back in a circular motion. "Your gonna have to open up one day" she said in mid silence. She was right, but how? I've held so much hatred towards my father, so me opening up and trying to let it go is going to be hard.
I didn't respond, I had to think. I needed closer. "Rod? You hear me"? She asked stopping the rotation she made in my back.
"I hear you Janelle, but how? How can I do that? I build this guard around me and it's filled with hatred against the one person who it shouldn't be for. I'm hurt do you know how it feels for your own father not to want you"? I questioned.
She didn't answer. She just continued to rub my back. "Can I stop by my mothers"? She questioned. I shook my head 'yes' and turned at the light.
We pulled up to her mid sized home and knocked on the door. "Who is it" i heard her call through the door. "It's me mama" Janelle called through the door.
She swung open the door and pulled Janelle into a tight hug. I tried showing a fake smile as she greeted me with a hug. "Hey baby, come on in its cool out here" she cooed.
We walked into her well decorated home and I took a seat on the sofa and listened to Janelle and her mother talk about stuff. I just sat there in deep thought.
"Rod? Are you okay sugar"? She questioned. I looked up quickly and clapped my hands together and tried whipping on a smile, "oh, I'm fine just thinking about the season starting and all! You know" I lied.
She looked at me as if she was reading and looking over the lie I just told. "Ok, well if yiu need someone to talk to you can always speak to me. I'll be here" she said
I shook my head 'ok' and continued in with my thoughts.
"Janelle come help me with this dinner baby" I heard her mother say through my deep thinking. Janelle was right. Maybe I do need to sit down with my father and talk it out it's all for the better.
1 week later
I decided to fly my father and his new family out to Miami, I was going to make the best out of it. I talked to him over the phone and he told me about his wife and daughter. I can't say I'm excited, but then again I can't say I'm not.
More nervous then anything. I watched as Janelle decorated the dining room table in our two story house and finish up in dinner. I had a driver to pick up my father and his family at the airport to bring them here.
I was nervous I sat in the couch and waited for them to arrive. "Calm down Rod" Pam said holding Symphony in her arms placing her in her high chair. I rubbed my hands together and walked I to the kitchen where Janelle was.
"You do need to calm down" she spoke taking the chicken out of the oven. I grabbed her waist and kissed her neck. "I'll be calm later when you relax me" I said smacking her ass right when the door bell rang.
I fixed my tie and opened the door. I saw my father, Richard, along with his wife who looked really young and his daughter who looked like she was like 5. I was expecting someone much older.
"Please, come in" I heard Pam say behind me. They stepped in and I took their bags and placed it in a guest room. I tipped the driver and came back in the house.
The room was silent. "Have a seat, the food will be ready soon" I stated. I saw his daughter sort if hide behind his wife's leg. She looked nervous. We has something in common.
"And what's your name"? I asked trying to make her feel welcomed. "Felicity Marie Mitchell" she said "but they call me FeFe for short" sen continued. I smiled big and sat disney on the sofa.
"How old are you" I asked "I'm seven and a half" she said smiling bright. I smiled and looked up at Richards wife. "Hello, I'm Rodkevious Mitchell it's nice having you all here" I said reaching out to shake her hand.
"It's a pleasure to finally meet you, I'm Bridget" she announced.
Dinner went well, I actually enjoyed myself. I thought it was going to go horribly wrong but it actually was great. "That was an amazing dinner Janelle, you really out did yourself" Bridget said.
Janelle blushed. "Thank you" she said clearing the table, cleaning the dishes.
We talked and laughed for the rest of the evening. I enjoyed Richard and his family and little Felicity was filled with so much energy she reminded me a lot of myself.
I took a shower and laid in the bed next to Janelle, she was watching reruns of Martin, she loved that show. I cuddled up behind her kissing her next and listened to her let out a soft moan. I laughed and held her waist tighter.
"I love you" I said throughout the kisses I planted on her neck. "I love you too" she said turning faced me. "Let's make a baby" I announced. "A what"? She questioned.
"A baby, come on we aren't getting any younger and I love you, you love me and I want to start a family" I told her. "Rod are you serious"? She questioned. "Yes I'm serious" I assured her. She smiled and kissed my lips. "Ok" she said agreeing.
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