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"it's raining every time i open my eyes."
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i'd never really been good with people.
ever since i was little, i had trouble talking in front of people i didn't know very well. i would stutter or choke on my words, as my parents would chuckle faintly and simply say, "oh, she'll grow out of it."
but that's the problem, i never did grow out of it. here i am, age fifteen, freshman year in high school, and my nervousness and trouble speaking increasingly worsens every day.
it doesn't help that a few days ago i started a new school, in result of my mother transferring jobs. moving in the middle of the semester is truly difficult, especially now that everyone has their "cliques" and their little friend groups. plus, how am i supposed to make friends in such a large place like this?
everyone is so loud.
i've met zero people, zero friends, not that i expected i'd make any friends. i hardly ever do.
i looked down at my lunch tray, picking up the food that doesn't even seem to be edible. i examined the overcooked grilled cheese sandwich, turning it over, noticing the rock hard edges of the bread. giving up, i placed my food back on the tray and look down at it.
my thoughts were interrupted when i heard a group of friends near me, erupting with loud laughter. i casted a slight glare towards them, until one of them noticed me.
her brown eyes met mine, and a smile radiated her face. "i don't think i recognize you, are you new?" she asked with a tender voice.
instantly, i felt bad that i had glared, yet she had responded with such a kindhearted tone.
i wanted to tell her 'yes', but the words seemed helplessly trapped in the back of my throat. i nodded at her simply, biting my bottom lip due to my nervousness.
"welcome to sooman high, my name is seulgi," she said with another radiant smile. then she nudged her friend next to her, who seemed to be staring off into space. "and this is my friend joohyun," she said while nudging her friend a little harder to get her attention.
joohyun snapped out of it and turned towards me. "oh, hi. i am joohyun," she said with a tiny smile. "what's your name?"
"y-yerim," i choked out quietly, cringing slightly at how much i had stuttered. sometimes i wondered if people ever liked me, i can't even seem to talk to people without choking on my own words.
i felt so awkward.
seulgi gave me a welcoming smile. "it's nice to meet you, yerim. i hope you enjoy your time at sooman high."
