Finding Our Way Back (Sequel)

Attempts

"I'm not sure. I have nothing but love for him but he betrayed my trust, I didn't want to break up with him but I had to, I'm not trying to look stupid. What drove him to infidelity could've been from our lack of communication and intimacy, it's like we were strangers to each other. Months after the rape I was still healing emotionally, I wanted to be intimate with Odell but my mind and body wouldn't let me."

"You can't force yourself to do something your body is not ready for. Lack of communication is what mainly cause problems in a relationship, with everything that transpired plus with the both of you being so adamant about not getting help and ignoring your problems caused the rift between you two. There is no excuse for infidelity but you cannot blame yourself for what others do. Have you forgiven him?"

"I told him I did but deep down I haven't fully."

"If you haven't fully forgiven him, how are you in a relationship with someone else? Do you believe that is fair to him?"

"It's not a relationship, I've known him for three months we're just good friends. I'm not hurting anyone the most intimate thing we've done is literally hold hands and he cooked dinner for me one time."

"How do you know he doesn't feel that way about you? You say that you're friends but he could be under the impression that he's in a relationship with you. That's something you need to clarify with him before anything goes further. You can't start something new in your life with past feelings."

She was right, I need to stop what I was doing so I could avoid problems in the future. Brian doesn't deserve that.

"With Mr. Daniels, have you forgiven him for what he did to you?"

"It took a very long time and a lot of soul searching but yes I have."

"What about Deanna?"

"Yes, she write letters to me sometimes."

I know you're asking how can I forgive the two people who hurt me over and over but not forgive the one person whose been there for me and only hurt me once? Well with Tyson and Deanna I knew what to expect from them it never fails, but with Odell I wasn't expecting that to happen.

"How's the case going?"

"Terrible, now they want to give him a psychiatric evaluation to deem him competent enough to stand trial. He was competent enough to plan this whole scheme alongside with Deanna, he shot a woman in the head three times, he beat my ex half to death and got one of his boys to kill him in front of me, he kidnapped and raped me, and he killed the same guy who killed my ex, he shot Odell and he tried to kill his other partner and left him temporarily paralyzed. Any other case he had before me he wasn't evaluated, why is this happening now?"

"The justice system has a way doing things unexpectedly and it's not always in our favor."

"And they want me to testify against him. For what? He admitted to the things he did and plead no contest why do I still need to speak against him if he's throwing himself at the mercy of the court?"

"The prosecution still needs to prove their case. Without your testimony he could walk."

"How? There were other people involved they can testify too."

"That's true. What if they were feeling the same way as you do about testifying? If they don't testify and the evidence falls through you won't get the justice you deserve. Why are you so against this?"