UNCONDITIONAL

CHAPTER SIX

    My heart has never beat so fast in my entire life. That's sad because then you can tell that i'm not very fucking athletic and just get fat at home. But back to now. Ethan just kissed me...and i kissed back? I don't know why i did it. I'm confused and the worst part is that i liked it. Little did i even fucking know that he liked me...i mean you're probably saying 'wasn't it obvious'? I'm a pretty oblivious guy, so no, no it was not. Jesus i'm going to late for class...and i can't stop thinking about him. Remember when i said i wasn't gay? Ah hahaha i do too. And yeah no i'm still not gay okay. Just because i kissed him back doesn't mean anything right, i mean ha! It's just my normal boy hormones getting all sexual. That's why i stopped myself before getting any further. Just stop thinking about it, there im done its out of my mind! I'm! in! class! Fuck...his lips were so- "John where have you been. You're Ten minutes late." Shit i have this sub today. She is so damn annoying. "i-uh well..um...I had to do someth-" "Ha! doing something my ass. He was locking lips with the dream boy in junior year." Alexs interrupted me. I forgot she was there before it happened...could it be she stuck around and saw..obviously that's what happened. And now this got out...she did it for revenge..that bitch. I could feel my face burn up. The stares of my fellow classmates on me, shocked, disgusted. Jealousy from the girls...that my lips went against the dream boys lips. The one everyone fights for. But in my defense it was against my own will! Right...? Damn some guys are looking at me with disgust, smirks, etc. I just want to go home...i want to die of embarrassment. The substitute looks at me, with a glare. "Being a homosexual is no excuse for being late for class!" She says loudly and glare back, some kids laugh. Especially aleks, she smirks at me with a face expression that yells 'That's what you get for fucking with me'. I suddenly get upset. Enraged. "IM NOT A FUCKING HOMO, SO STOP BEING SOME DICKS AND FUCK OFF MY SHIT" I yelled out. My hands were in fists. I blinked a few times in shock, i just yelled, not even mention cursed at the class and teacher. Shit. I cover my mouth and slowly walk backwards. The sub started to scowl at me and walk towards me. My eyes widen a bit as i run fast to the entrance of the school. Just get out of here was the only thought on my mind. I soon made it out of the school, but a different door so the secretary at the front wouldnt catch me. I was out of breath, once i got past the gates of the school, i stoped. I placed my hands on my knees and panted, more than i ever had, sweat rolled from my forehead and down my cheek. Except, what rolled down my cheek was not sweat. I was crying, more tears came down. I don't even know why i'm crying. God.
After my shit baby fest, i started to walk into town. I put my earbuds in while walking and i guess some adults were wondering why the fuck i'm not in school if i'm in my uniform. I was getting hungry so i got some mcdonalds, classy amirite? I sat down and school was almost over anyways. Everyone always comes here after school. i better get out fast.
It's around three now. I'm just walking in an alley, alone. I want to think about myself for a bit. My sexuality. If i kissed ethan that doesn't mean i'm gay...maybe just curious..i don't know. I want to just be an emo cunt. Suddenly i heard a noise. Like a trash can clang and i looked around suspicious. "h-hello?" i called out and looked around. No one fucking answered. I make a somewhat irritated face and growl under my breath. "what the fuck people..." i muttered and i then walked down the alley again. I hear something again, and as i turned around about four big guys were there. They wore my uniform and they looked at me with a smirk. They grabbed my damn defenseless self and pinned me on the wall hard. "ow!" i yelled and looked at them, scared. They all looked at me smirking. They were hot and all but i got this bad feeling. "So aleks says you're gay huh, we always thought you had a nice body and all. But look, looks like you actually like dick hm?" He laughs and puts me in a choke hold. Who the hell does he think he is? I kick his dick and pull away from his hold "what the hell?" "What the hell is right. What makes you think you can kick me!" he yelled and i started to walk backwards and run again, his guys soon started to chase after me. Again breathless, i was running for my LIFE. Just because i may be curious about guys doesn't mean i can become a boy toy. Really how sick are people? Tch how annoying.
I'm at home now, thankfully i got away from those guys. I just lied down and it seemed my phone has been blown up by ethan. I read all his texts and sorta smile, i'm happy that he worried about me. I reply with a normal "hey there."
OUR GAYISH CONVERSATION
ethan: 'hey there' ? Where were you after school?
me: Oh i skipped school.
ethan:...um wut?
i'm dead 'wut' how much cut-...um dumber can he get. Ha! ha ...HAAHA.
Ethan: What do you mean you skipped school. Where do you go? you should have came back to wait for me to take you home, i missed you, i mean...i missed your presence i guess.
me:....ethan chill out man...um
ethan: no i will not chill out...what if something bad happened, you weren't at home when i came by your place after school.
me:yeah i guess something bad happned but lets forget about that my love!
ethan: my love? are we dating now??
me: get over yourself.
ethan: :-(
After that i told him what happened and he seemed upset. I guess i could have called him to save me other than almost being gang banged. I also told him what aleks did and he was also pissed at her. Which makes sense, i shoulda listened to him about her. Jesus. My whole day has just been shitty. Besides the fact that, i got a kiss by someone who actually likes me. Now that made me feel good.
NEXT DAY
Last night ethan texted me to go to sleep early, like a mother. I mean he does every night but, last night felt different. Now that i know he likes me and all, it felt like he was making sure i was safe or something dumb like that. It made me happy, and today i met him by the coffee shop so we could get some then walk to school together. I guess at first it was awkward. I didn't know what to say, but of course he broke the ice. But it was so embarrassing..."You're a good kisser." I blushed and looked away. "w-what...why did you randomly say that?" He looks at me. "well you aren't fucking talking, i had to say what was on my mind." I look at him and sigh. "really? you coulda said like, Hey come to my practice today, or doesn't she loook cute?" i laughed a bit and he gives me a look. "i don't lay my eyes on anyone but you." he said monotonely. I blushed a bit more and looked down. "i-i see..." "i wish you did the same." he looked forward and stretched. "...sorry." He nodded and yawned. And i didn't say anything else the whole time.
When we got there i realized i may have in school suspension for my act yesterday. I went to class and ethan came with me. "You're like a puppy, so clingy" i said, not as a compliment. "Is that a bad thing?" he asked me and i shrugged. "i guess not..." I figured ethan was still waiting for my answer to his confession. I mean it's only been a day. I want to try to forget what happened. Many people already look at us anyways, i wouldnt want any more stares due to a homosexual fucking relationship.
Turns out i did get ISS. Fuck..this is so boring. Just sitting here doing nothing. I wonder what ethan is doing. Oh wait he is behind me because he kissed a boy, me :-). I guess being gay is against the rules here. So if, IF we were to date we would have to keep it low as fuck. I mean i don't even know if we would date. But the more i talk to him, look at him, laugh with him. The more i like him. It's tragic.
After school i walked ethan to practice but had a shit load of work to do at home. So i was walking out the doors of the school and suddenly get pulled away and blindfolded. I couldn't see anything, i just felt someone pick me up. "e-ethan? this isn't some funny joke...i told you i'm not gay..." I assumed it was ethan, and i guess he put me in a room because i heard a door close. Someone takes off my blind fold, and it wasn't ethan. "Shit...no no no" i say and look around. my hands and feet were tied and i just squirmed. "p-please stop! sorry about yesterday eh heh i mean self defense is a big help heh...he..." I was scared straight. It was just that once guy i kicked yesterday. He looked down at me with a devious smirk. "Bad boys don't get to be free" he said and i tilted my head. "W-what? cmon man let me go." I begged but he just leaned down and lifted my chin. He smirked and pulled me by my tie to his face. I was so flustered and just scared. i turned my face away and he did it. He fucking kissed my neck. I don't even know this guy...and he is trying to seduce me. It won't work. If i were to turn out to like guys it would probably only be ethan. Damn would it kill ethan to be with me right now. He would help me. "what even is your fucking name." i asked. "hah...it's filip. Be sure to moan my name while i fuck your brains out please." i growl as i look at him and try to kick him again but he just pins me down. I scream, for help, for anyone. I didn't want this to happen. I wanted to cry. Once again this feeling. He untied me and pinned me down. Suddenly my phone rang. It was ethan. I looked over at it and smiled as i tried to reach for it. But filip just laughs and grabbed it. "you're little boyfriend hm?" "s-stop please!" He smirked at me pressed his thumb against my chest, on my yeah- you know. I winced a bit, but also moaned softly. What the hell was i thinking, moaning...will entice him even more. He answered the call. "hello? ethan?" He smirked as he looked at me. I teared up and shook my head. "Who the hell is this...?" i hear ethan say. "oh it's filip. Johns new boyfriend." He laughed a bit and i shouted "ethan help me!" he didn't see that coming but he put me in a choke hold and he ripped open the buttoned part of my shirt and leaned down licked my chest slowly . "a-ah..." i blushed and tears went down my face . "john?!" ethan yelled out and hung up. He was coming. But where would he know to search. Maybe he is familiar with filip and his rape ways. Fuck...what have i done. He rubbed my man tits (hA) and i panted a bit. I was pinned, weaker than this guy. I couldn't help but be strained. He started to suck on them and i moaned even more "s-stop it!" he was smirking as i was uncontrollably moaning. If anything i thought ethan would be the first to do this...the only one i would want to do this. Shit. He groped me suddenly and i yelled ethan's name so he could hear me. Jesus...where is he. I hate this feeling. If someone touching me like this. Being violated. He licked up my neck and kissed my lips. He stuck his tongue in my mouth with out my permission. He was stroking me while doing this. I wanted to die. I feel gross...He wiped the tears off my face. And pulled down my pants.
God ethan. Save me.