:•: autumn :•: a Josh Dun fan fiction

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We seemed to arrive at the perfect time because right after we got set up, about 50 more people joined the line in the next 30 minutes. I was surprised to see that many people had the black paint on their neck just like Isabelle had done. I had to admit, I was pretty curious to see this band now.

The day went by pretty slowly and very uneventful. But it wasn't bad. It was actually kind of a cool atmosphere. I didn't really talk to anyone, but Isabelle talked to most of the people in line around us and they all seemed really nice. A couple people brought around flags for us to sign so that they could remember the concert, and one girl brought hats around to sign for the crew. I really admired how much these fans truly cared about the band. I had never seen anything like it before! The fans also got together to take a group picture that they apparently did every year at the Red Rocks concert. They seemed like one gigantic family. I could see why Isabelle wanted to get here so early.

Finally it was almost time to go into the actual venue. My nerves started to kick in again, but I chose to ignore them. I didn't want to deal with this right now in front of everyone. I already didn't fit in with the fans and didn't want to make a scene. Isabelle and I put all of our items back into her car while the fans in front of us held our spot in line. Isabelle's enthusiasm was contagious and I could really tell how much this band meant to her. I truly had never seen her so excited for something in her life!

"Are they really that good?" I asked.

"Huh?" Isabelle replied.

"Well I've just been observing everything today and the fans seem so devoted and I've never seen you so excited for something in your life. Are they really that good? I mean, it's just a band right?"

Isabelle gave me a sad smile. "You'll see after the concert" She said. "Autumn", she looked into my eyes, "they changed my life".

I looked back at her with wide eyes. Wow. How could a band affect people so much? I guess I was about to find out.

The security people began to let everyone in and suddenly I was pushed and shoved as I tried to keep up with the crowd. Everyone was running as fast as they could uphill to get inside and get seats. I tried to follow Isabelle's short red-brown hair, but the crowd pulled me away and I was all of a sudden thrown into a state of confusion. I was being shoved from every side and didn't know where to go. I became paralyzed from fear as I realized I had lost Isabelle.

Everywhere I looked I saw people pushing each other and running. There were people all around me, and yet I felt so alone. I looked around frantically for Isabelle but it was no use. I wasn't that tall, and besides the crowd had already drawn her far away from me.

I felt my breathing become extremely heavy and my anxiety kicked in. I turned around in circles unable to see anything familiar as my eyes grew blurry from tears. I could feel my body shaking and felt the weight on my chest being shoved down onto my lungs, making it impossible to breathe. I gasped for air as I tried to clear my eyes from the waterfall that had erupted, but it was no use. I started running. Anywhere. Somewhere. I had to get away. I ran against the crowd, trying to get away from all these people. I needed to breathe. I couldn't think. I couldn't feel. I couldn't see. All I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep, but I couldn't. The panic set in as I ran for what seemed like hours. I couldn't tell where I was going and I only felt my anxiety become worse. Every breath felt like someone was punching me in the gut and I was shaking uncontrollably. My legs failed me as I fell onto the ground in front of the frantic crowd. I shouted out in pain as countless people stepped on me before I was able to push myself back up. I continued running and tripped again but caught myself this time.

All of a sudden I ran into some sort of a chain and hurriedly crawled underneath it, escaping the crowd. I continued running and finally found a bus. I curled up against it and hugged my knees tight to my chest, thankful for being alone. I sat there for a while, swaying back and forth and trying to get my breath back. The tears still continued and I found myself wondering how so much water was stored behind my eyelids.

I closed my eyes. "Brreeathe A-autumn. I-in, o-out. I-in, o-out".

I was so caught up in telling myself to breathe that I didn't notice a someone had sat down next to me. I didn't bother to open my eyes. I was too embarrassed.

I felt a hesitant arm wrap around my shoulder. They didn't say anything, for which I was extremely thankful. I'm not sure my voice would work yet anyways. I appreciated the comfort and understanding coming from this unknown person sitting next to me. I could feel their concern and I began to regain my breath.

I eventually gained the courage to open my eyes and glance at the strange human comforting me.

A man with hair the color of pink roses, eyes the color of dark chocolate, and a face full of understanding stared back at my tear stained mess of a face.

So Josh has finally been introduced 😂🙌🏻 I hope you guys like this chapter!!! Please let me know what you think and as always I'd love to hear your recommendations! :) Writing this has been so much fun for me actually and I feel like it's helping my anxiety and just helping me relax so yeah! Thank you guys so much for reading this and I really hope you like it! Stay alive everyone 💕 |-/