for Khiara

onze

12/14: meters

there's been a weight in my chest
since the day that you left
for Christmas vacation.

i'm trying to figure out how
i should and shouldn't go about
my little situation.

do i call you when i miss you
or would that be a little too
obvious of my feelings?

should i ask how you are
with that boy so far
at the expense of my healing?

should i drive by your house
and ask you to hang out
or would you even be at home?

should i attempt some spontaneity
or shield myself from the possibility
that you'd be with him getting some?

i hope he desires you enough
that being far from you is tough
like how this break for me has been hell.

you two must be so in love
like you're in heaven and above
while i'm in flames, hoping all for you is well.

at least we're under one moon tonight,
we see the same dark skies, right?
except the stars in your eyes are for his only.

it crushes me that you're just an hour away,
a little over 30 kilometres from where i lay,
yet you have never been further away from me.

so all i will say tonight is good evening
and sweet dreams, my darling.
don't forget to sleep on time.

i'll see you in a few weeks,
i miss you dearly.
maybe in another life.