Chapter 28

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by Penguinsarecutr

by Penguinsarecutr

Both
Cali's
Dylan

I began to sit up. I felt tired and exhausted and the words 'if you love him/her you will let him/her go was just burning though my mind. Letting them go. I mean yes it would be sensible and better for the both of us In this situation and anyway it might not even be love, just hormones or the baby causing mixed emotions. Which brings me too what happens when the baby's born. How do we say goodbye. I mean I'm sure she will hate me for promising a nice birth when I know that it won't be. That's why I needed to train her for it. But maybe this part of the training was key. It would mean she can learn to live without me, after. God I didn't want it to be like this at all. I wish I'd chosen a Woman who id have no chance of loving instead of this angel. Yes that's it. I picked an angel when I wasn't allowed near the gates of heaven. That's why I'm not allowed her. She's on a cloud and that's where she belonged and forcing her to burn for me would be just unthinkable. "I'd catch a grenade for ya, you know I'd do anything for ya, I'd go though all this pain, take a bullet straight though the brain, oh I'd die for you baby" I slammed my hand into the morning radio to shut it up. God I didn't need that- "I'm on a high way to hell" I turned sharply to the radio and slammed it again. God my fucking morning (a/n I'm just going to slide back into the different povs)

Cali's PoV

My door opened and I'm walked mum. She had a bowl

"Made you some porridge, need you strong it's not long now" she smiled as she placed it next to me. I thanked her. She looked at me concerned "you look off"

"He's been kicking all night, I hardly slept" I sighed and looked out the window then back at her

"I see, when he's out it will be a relief I tell you" she laughed then went serious and took a seat next to me

"Have you sorted out where he's going, after" she whispered.

"Yeah I found a family, I met with them the other day, and some days before and they are really nice" I said and rubbed my stomach slightly and she nodded

"Great, eat your porridge up" she Said and placed it onto my lap and began to walk out. I didn't feel like eating so I pushed it aside and just laid in bed. I saw a dark hooded figure again, obviously not Dylan

"How's your morning" Johnny, I think, asked

"Let me guess, he's tied up" I groaned as I rubbed my forehead

"Actually he's handling the Mass murder, Hopkin-"

"Sure whatever" I sighed to shut him up. I didn't feel like bull shit today

"He's doing this because he does care about you, you know" he whispered.

"I didn't even want to get fucking pregnant ever, I didn't want kids, I'm not even 20 and I've ruined my life and body for him so I think he should at least come and fucking visit me and explain fucking expain everything to me, like a fucking man, because this hormonal bitch will rip someone's fucking head off right now and I'm looking at you Johnny, and fucking hell I want bacon and eggs right now" I yelled to a now cowering dementor

"I'm here, happy now" I herd a voice from behind me