It's been a week.
One fucked up week.
I stayed at home and locked myself in. For the first time in my life I wasn't running away to football or any other distraction. I wanted to stay at home and remember her, remember us.
I wanted to die. I wanted to throw myself off the clif like she did.
So I went there. To our mountain. I stood on the edge for about an hour, drunk, alone.
I couldn't stop thinking about her.
I took a step further and just before I wanted to throw myself off I heard her.
She was there, in my head. I heard her speak:
"You wouldn't do such a stupid thing, would you?"
I turned around but she wasn't there. It made me fall on my knees, away from the edge.
I'm going insane. Now I'm hallucinating about her.
"Oh God." I whispered to myself.
Maybe she's looking over me. Maybe it wasn't just a hallucination.
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Cold Hearts || Miniminter AUFanfiction
»Our love faded away. You don't even notice me anymore. But in my eyes, you're still my whole world. I just want to survive my first winter without you. « | WARNING: Depression, Self-Harm & Alcohol use READ AT OWN RISK!! |