poems to you

21

i felt so alone inside my head,
a constant wish that i was dead.
empty and broken, i was alone,
the reasons behind this? unknown.

then i let you in my life, deep into my heart,
i believed that nothing would ever keep us apart.
my whole world had fallen into place,
when my darkest feelings you began to erase.

this perfect dream began to crack and shatter,
now i am left with nothing except the tatters.
it turns out you were only breaking me more,
now i am deceased, deep to the core.

my eyes are now empty- not an ounce of light,
i am once again lost in endless night.
when i close my eyes and begin to sleep,
dark dreams and nightmares begin to creep.

i awake with screaming in my ears,
this is followed by my streaming tears.
in this raw moment, i ache for you,
this only rips my pain anew.

this crippling pain leads me to the knife,
my friend that will surely end my life.