MUST READ : A/N : Soooo...This will most definitely be the shortest BOOK I have ever written, because Im stopping the book at this chapter.
I am soooooooooooo sorry, becuase its sooo short , but I just had to end it.
But I will be writing another book after this one . Itll be the 3rd book to Must Be Nice.
Ugh I hate that this book is so short. But Book 3 will be the longest book ive ever written. Im talkin 40-50 Chapters yall.
Kaeden. Sosa. Kaeden. Sosa.
I just couldnt figure out which one he was anymore.
Some nights he was here.
Some he wasnt.
Some days he was cool.
Others , he was so fucking mean. And all we do is fight ! I try to let shit go , but I get so pissed.
I dont know what to do anymore.
I love him so much..but I just feel like he is becoming distant to me and Kylan.
He doesnt even come out his room anymore.
When he does , its if hes scared or if hes hungry.
Other times , he just sits in there.
I have to force him to shower.
His grades have dropped tremendously.
HES TOO YOUNG.
He is only in the 4th grade. How can his grades be so horrible ?
It seems like im the only strong one in this house.
I lost KJ , too. And it kills me .
But I try to be there for my family. We still have anianother kid on the way.
Why do I even try ?
Nothing will ever be the same.
I try and try and try. But im only talking to fucking walls.
" Baby come eat " I say to Kylan.
He was sittin on his bed, staring at .. nothing.
" Ian hungry "
Have I mentioned that his grammar changed also ? He talks how Kaeden talked when we first met.
Fucking 8 year old boy talkin like the next thug .
" Kylan come on, just eat a little "
" IM NOT HUNGRY " he yelled
See. If I wasnt pregnant and already stressed , I would be beatin his ass.
But I let it slide and closed his door.
"Fuck it. Im done " I mumbled.
I walked downstairs to see Kaeden watching the game.
" Are you hungry? " I ask him.