Day 108

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TCWDM : Pasingit. Dapat dalawa o tatlo yung video ni Neah na isusulat ko as sample videos. Pero... ang sakit sa dibdib. At pwede namang isa lang. So, tama na yung isa. Anyways...

(Jia's journal)

I watched all 28 videos. Tatlong ulit. Apat na ulit. Limang ulit.

Why did I watch those?

In it, she was in tears... and he always smiled-for her. Nagbibiro siya. Tumatawa. To relieve her of her pains and fears. Kahit na siya, mukhang iiyak na rin. Kahit na siya, mukhang nanghihina na rin.

Why did I have to see it? His pain in loving her? His pain in being the one who's left behind?

Gaano kahirap sa kanya ang ngumiti habang unti-unting nangangayat si Neah? Habang unti-unting namumutla? Habang unti-unting namamatay?

Gaano kahirap sa kanya ang magbiro kahit na gustong-gusto na niyang umiyak?

How hard has it been for him to console her and assure her of a tomorrow he's also scared of missing?

How hard has it been for him to slowly die inside?

He gave her all of himself. When she died, he was gone, too.

She cried in fears of being forgotten. She cried in fears of being replaced. Sa lahat ng videos, she kept on stressing na ayaw niyang makalimutan siya ni Harry.

And that's what he is doing until now. For her.

That's why he's sending her letters everyday, right? To make sure na hindi siya nakakalimot. Para siguruhin sa sarili niya that he's keeping the promise he made to her.

That's why he could never be a man for anyone else.

His love for her... what kind of love would get past that?

None.

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