Harry scoffed, shaking his head as he rolled his eyes. "That's a dumb question."
"Don't get smart with me, all I'm trying to do is help you in some way. It's the only thing I can do right now."
"How 'bout sleep? I've kept you up enough. You should've went home with Raye, it's where you belong."
"Look man, the only reason I'm still here is because of you and Zayn. I could drive him home, like I offered, but he refused because he said it didn't feel right going home when he knew things weren't alright." Damiun says, nodding his head in Zayn' direction, making Harry look at him with drooped eyes, rolling his lips in as he looked away. "And second, I have to keep you sane, meaning that I'm staying here until you can talk to me, and until you want to leave."
"I don't want to leave, not until I know she's okay, not until I know they are."
"Then I'll stay here," He strugged. "But just know, they can kick us out, so don't think we can stay here for a whole week."
Harry remained silent, running over a few things with himself before he said something he would regret later on. He didn't want to talk, but eventually he knew he had to, because Estella always told him that if something was wrong, he had the ability to speak his mind to clear the blockage. Damiun was his friend, and the only one awake right now, so he had no other option then to just speak his mind with him. He needed someone to listen, let him vent, let him go on and on until he was done and tell him positive things he needed to hear in order to clear his mind of the negative.
"I just keep thinking about what I'm going to do if I lose them. How am I supposed to go on living, knowing that they are gone, and there is absolutely no way for me to bring them back?" He mumbled, voice quaking as he tried to maintain his tears. "Years later, or a month after this, you think I can be man enough to attend their funeral? I would lose my absolute fucking mind seeing them being lowered into the ground next to each other. I refuse to see that, I-I can't do that."
"And I know that's going to be a fucking heart shattering moment, and I completely understand that. But you have to be strong about this, and be the man you can be for not only your wife, but yourself. Keep being the father that those baby girls in there need. They will make it, I can promise you that. Estella will be fine, alright? You have to stop thinking of all the negative outcomes of this and start thinking about what you have to face."
"I'm not strong enough."
"Say that again and I'll strangle you," He warned. "Harry, you are one of the most strongest guys I have ever known. And maybe you still don't see that, but I do. We all do as a matter-of-fact, and even if Estella taught you how to be strong during you guy's entire relationship, you also learned how to love yourself. More than ever, and dude, I respect you a lot for that, especially after the shit you've been through at such a young age."
"That's really nice of you." Harry smiled.
"Yeah, and I-I wasn't ready to tell anyone this yet, but we recently found out that Iyana has cancer, so I can see how this feels right now," Damiun looks away from him, staring down at his hands. "To have that fucking fear of knowing that you could lose a child in such a horrible way, drives you completely off the fucking bridge. So as a husband to another husband, and a father to another, I'm telling you that we have to be as strong as we possibly can be, even if it burns so much inside, we have to keep that positivity with us, or else we would lose all hope, and eventually, our wives would too."
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you seem to always think about how the world is against you. how every person surrounded by you consumes the distraught aura you hold, feeling it wrap around your neck like a mans bare hands and strangles you until you feel utterly left of air to in...