Lust

chapter 8

CHRIS POV

me and Justin have been best friends for years back to when we were in diapers we're completely opposite , but I think that's what makes us so close.  Through all the years we've never missed a day talking to each other until now for the last couple of days he's been avoiding me, ignoring my texts, and skipping the classes that we share.  Brittany comes and hugs me she has a big smile on her face. 

"I passed my freshman experience class with an A." She gets so excited about her grades. I ruffled her hair.

"Don't you always get A's." She pouts and crosses her arms.

"Do you always gotta ruin stuff." I laughed holding her from behind I guess now we were dating or talking or some shit I don't know.

"Well I passed my auto class with a C so hooray for me ima be a auto mechanic ." She looked at me smiling bigger. I'm not use to all this usually she's laid back, but now she's a completely different person and a freak. 

"Chris we're going to go home for break and then after that we graduate can you believe it. "

"Technically I graduate and you still have 3 years." She frowned. 

"Whatever, but do you wanna meet my m-"

"Before you finish I'm not into the while meeting the parents thing. " she looks confused. 

"Well it's only been a couple of days and to be honest we're not even gonna last that long."

"W...what? "

"Well obviously I just wanted your body I mean I never really wanted a relationship I was just in it for the sex. " I could tell by her facial expression every word stabbed her in the heart as tears began to form in her eyes and I little part of me felt hurt for even letting that come out my mouth.  She ran wiping the tears from her eyes. 

"Man fuck." I punched a wall cracking it a bit.

"Why does it hurt me so fucking much!?" Tristan walks up to me I'm guessing he saw the whole thing. 

"Bro you probably was in love with her, but the hoe in you never felt that way before. "

"What that's ridiculous." He shrugged. 

"You're an asshole man you missed out on a really good girl. " Well thanks for making me feel worse. 

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BRITTANY POV
the next couple of days that passed felt like hell I couldn't sleep without dreaming of him I couldn't eat I hated looking at myself in the mirror knowing all the stuff I did to him ands let him do to me.  I cried more.  My mom was worried, but I had shut everybody out I hate myself I don't want to talk to anybody.  Chris has been texting me and calling me none stop, but I haven't even touched my phone.  All I was to him was a piece of ass o should've known he's a fucking incubus they lie to get what they want from women why did I think he was any different justin even warned me about him,  but I didn't want to listen. I curled up in a ball crying.  I hurt so much I just want it all to end.  I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror I was disgusted by what looked back at me.  I punches the glass shattering it and cutting up my knuckles.

"Just end it. " I heard a small voice what the fuck was that. 

"Just end it. " I looked around and saw nothing, but I kept hearing the voice repeating the same thing it was deep and it sounded near but also far.  Maybe it was right. I went into the medicine cabinet and poured all 50 200mg ibuprofen in my hand I I swallowed them with some water. A couple minutes later I felt dizzy and tired before I could get my footing I collapsed and everything went black.  I felt no pain, no sadness, no anything,  but I could hear the sound of my mother screaming and crying. Soon I saw her over me trying to shake me awake.  I was getting farther and farther away from my body.  Don't worry mom everything will be ok.