So I have been stuck in this house and in this bed for four straight days and I am going crazy. The only time I am allowed out of this bed is to go to the bathroom to pee and frankly I am sick of this. I know I need to keep my stress levels down but staying in this bed is driving me insane. Whenever I ask Cordell if I could at least move to the couch downstairs, he told me no. He has become paranoid lately he won't let me do anything for myself. If I thought I was being treated like child before, I'm definitely am now.
So that I could get some peace, I made Cordell go to work. With him in the house he was driving me fucking insane. If I wanted something to eat he would pick me up and carry me to the kitchen. At first it was cute but then it became annoying as hell.
"Mommy can I sit in here with you?" this was Cordell's deal, I had to be watched by my four year old daughter. "Sure lady bug." She climbed on the bed and looked down at my belly.
"Is there really a person growing in your belly?"
"Yes it is."
"Does it hurt?"
"No but to tell you the truth it is kind of weird." She put her tiny hand on my stomach like she was trying to find the baby. "
"What are you doing?"
"Just feeling how it feels to have a person growing inside you." I laughed. "Don't worry about it lady bug, just know you will soon have a little brother or sister."
"I think I want a brother now."
"Why? I thought you wanted a little sister."
"Because if we have another girl then I won't be daddy's only little princess."
"Sapphire even we do have a baby girl your daddy will love you the same and never treat you any different. You are always going to be daddy's princess, you'll just be the oldest."
"You think so?"
"I know so."
We decided to just watch a movie to pass the time by. I really don't know what we are watching since I fell asleep. I really just wanted to get the hell out of this bed.
"Well don't you look comfortable." I looked up and saw Grace and Elizabeth standing in the doorway. "How did you two get in?"
"Okay what are you two doing here?"
"We came to break you out." Sapphire looked up at me and then smiled. I guess she wanted out too. "I am on bed rest and if Cordell found out I left this house he would kill me and both of you too."
"Don't worry about that boy, I raised him I can handle him. Now get up get dressed so we can go."
"Where are we going?"
"Shopping!" Grace screamed like they did in White Chicks. I laughed and got up to get dressed. Sapphire ran out the room so she could too.
After a shower I went into my closet and found black tights with a long red stretchy sweater and black boots that went up to my knee. I left my hair hanging like it was and went to find the others. I had to say getting dressed really made me feel better. "It's about time you came, we been waiting for you all day!"
"Stop being so dramatic Grace, I only took a little while."
"Well it felt like forever." I shooed her off and walked out the door to the car.
Being back in the world made me feel so happy. They took me to the mall and we shopped for baby things which I really hadn't done and I even got some maternity clothes. They stop there either, they even and made me buy baby things. We spent so much money I lost count.
"Now don't you feel better that we broke you out of that hell hole," Grace asked sipping on her icy.
"I will never tell but when Cordell gets home he will freak."
"That boy can be so uptight sometimes. I think he gets it from Conrad, it's like they have to always be in control."
"Tell me about it." I rolled my eyes thinking about Cordell and his controlling ways. It wasn't like it was a bad thing but sometimes it got in the way of him having fun.
When we got home Cordell was seating on the couch still in his suit. I could tell he was pissed by the way he was playing with his hands.
"Yea Grace and Elizabeth came and took me shopping."
"You were supposed to be on bed rest."
"I know but I got bored and I got tired being cooped up in that bed Cordell."
"That doesn't matter you were supposed to be on bed rest for our baby not going fucking shopping." Instead of saying anything I stepped back. I could feel the stress rising just from within. "Calm down Cordell, gosh the girl just went to the mall. You can't expect for her to just be stuck here," Elizabeth chimed in. "She was supposed to be on bed rest!" Elizabeth's face changed. "Want to tell me who you are yelling at?"
"Want to tell me why you let my fiancé who is pregnant and supposed to be on bed rest go shopping when it could hurt her and the baby?"
"First of all I don't have to explain anything to you but the next words out of your mouth better be an apology."
"I won't apologize when I'm right." He got up and walked off. I knew where he was going but I just couldn't believe what had just happened. "Sometimes that boy really makes me want to hurt him." Elizabeth got her things together and was about to leave. "Don't leave, I'm going to go talk to him."
I went to his study and found him typing on his computer. To tell the truth I was pissed at him but he needed to work things out with Elizabeth. I sat in the chair in front of his desk. I didn't say anything because I was afraid I would lash out like he did. "You should be in bed."
"Don't tell me where I should be." He looked up like he was surprised at what I had said. "So you're okay with putting your life and our baby's life in danger?"
"Understand something Cordell I am not going to be controlled and I'm not going to put my life on hold either. Now I will take it easy from here on and out to keep down my stress but other than that you will not tell me what I can and cannot do with my life. I get you want to take care of me and I love that about you but if you ever yell at me like that again I will not be this calm." I got up. "Go talk to your grandmother." I left out and went to the bedroom because right now I needed to really rest.
When I woke up I felt a dent in the bed. I knew who it was so I didn't turn around. I didn't feel like dealing with it right now. "I talked to my grandmother." I didn't say anything. "Will you at least look at me?" I sighed and turned to look at him. "I really made you mad, huh?"
"You here to yell at me again? I'm in bed like you told me to be."
"I'm sorry I yelled at you. I'm sorry I've been trying to control you lately. It's just seeing you screaming in pain keeps playing in my head. You don't know what that felt like Lelaih. Besides Sapphire you are my life and I cannot lose you. At this point I would love to have a beautiful baby with you but honestly life doesn't mean a damn thing without you in it."
"Is Elizabeth mad at you?"
"No, he forgave me but she told me next time she will punch me in the face." I laughed. He grabbed my hand and rubbed circles in it. "You still mad at me?"
"Next time it will be more than a punch."
"I will take that."
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