Picture of You [Jaeyong, Yusol] #JustWriteIt

Hansol's Uncle

Hansol heaves a sigh, remembering his conversation with Sa-chan's mother 5 months ago.

Now, after knowing Sa-chan's disorder, Hansol could help him better, could protect him better, and also treat him better. He tried as much as he can to make Sa-chan could live like a normal people.

Sa-chan's therapist said, whenever Sa-chan having the episode, Hansol has to remind him that his hallucination is not real. But it's easier said than done.

In reality, it's so much easier to play along with Sa-chan. It's not because Hansol dumbly gets into Sa-chan's abnormal world, but Hansol only wants Sa-chan being happy, and stops crying. Hansol has no idea since when Yoonoh brought Sa-chan a lot of tears. At the Korean restaurant 5 months ago was the first, and after that, the episode never brought Sa-chan to tears anymore, not until maybe last month?

Since last month, Sa-chan often crying for hours as he's mumbling those same words he said back then at the restaurant 5 months ago.

"Nooooo! Don't kill Yoonoh! Pleasee.... don't kill Yoonoh!"

"Just hurt me, please...."

"Yoonoh, Go! Let me take this... just let me take all of these pains. It doesn't matter. You have to live. You're still too young. Don't let those bastards hurt you."

Yoonoh is a better option. Hansol knows that. But, if he could choose, it'd be so much better if Sa-chan never experiencing those delusions and hallucinations.

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"Sa-chan, my uncle is a professor at the best university in Seoul. He's also a psychiatrist. Would you try to... talk to him? He's a nice and funny man."

One night, before going to sleep, Hansol proposes the idea. Ten, his cousin, told him to ask Sa-chan to talk to Ten's father by phone.

Yesterday, Ten said "My father is annoying, but he's super good, hyung. Based on your stories about your boyfriend, I suspect there're still a lot of things hidden. I'm not a good student, but I know a schizophrenic could become really dangerous, spontaneously, not only for himself but also others around him. My father's client even killed his entire family when he got an episode. I didn't tell you to stay away of your boyfriend, but, based on your stories, based on what your boyfriend's mother had told you, about the hallucination, the other brother... I'm scared what if it's more than that, more than attempting suicide? When he got that episode, I'm afraid he'd also hurt people around him. I'm worried about you, hyung. You said it got worse? What if suddenly he got an episode about his other brother and hurt you? I know it's hard, but.. I think he has to be admitted into the hospital, again. If you don't want seeing him at the hospital, then ask his therapist to monitor him everyday, 24/7 if it's necessary. I didn't say my father is better, but if my father was your boyfriend's therapist, he wouldn't just visit your boyfriend 3 times a week, but everyday."

That's what Ten said to Hansol.

Sa-chan looks up at Hansol, arm still wraps around Hansol's waist. "Do you want me to talk to your uncle?"

Hansol pulls Sa-chan's closer, making the younger's head rests on his chest. "Only if you want to."

Sa-chan nods, smiling. "Mmm. I want talking to him."

Hansol smiles back then kisses Sa-chan's forehead. "Alright."

Since that night, Sa-chan always talks to Hansol's uncle everyday. He seems enjoying it. Hansol could only smile whenever Sa-chan tells him how funny his uncle is, and how he can always make him feel better.

Hansol often thinking, what if he brings Sa-chan to Seoul? Maybe Sa-chan would getting better faster if he meets Hansol's uncle directly. But Paris is Sa-chan's dream. His university is his dream. He always dreams of studying at the Universite Paris-Sorbonne since he was 17. How could Hansol take Sa-chan's dream away?!