Life Revamped

Chapter 15 - Revelations

I had just finished telling Aiden a bedtime story in which he had helped me develop.  I found myself having loads of fun with him.  I was far from prepared to the heavy-hearted conversation that was about to ensue as I attempted to kiss, this much too smart, four year old goodnight.

“Amelia?”  He asked as I motioned to lean over him and kiss him on the head.

“Yes Aiden.”  I said sweetly and couldn’t help but smile.

“Do you love me?”  And my heart just about leaped out of my chest.  I took a deep breath and proceeded with caution.

“Yes little man, I love you to the moon and back.”  I give him an answer that was true and that he would know how much he was loved.

“That’s super far!”  He looks at me with his mouth open in awe and I couldn’t hide the giggle from him.

“It sure is.”  I tell him and I kiss him on the forehead.

“Do you love my Daddy?”  He asks as I start to pull away.  “He loves you very much.  He told me so.”  And I couldn’t help but smile at him.  Oddly enough, I didn’t feel nervous or uncomfortable answering that question.

“Yes little man, I love your Daddy too.”  I say quietly.  “But you can’t tell him because he doesn’t know yet and Amelia wants to tell him herself really, really soon.  Shh!”  I whispered the latter.

“Okay.”  Aiden whispers back to me and I wink at him.  “When you tell him, does that mean you’ll be kissing Daddy like he kisses you?”  I couldn’t help the chuckle.

“Yeah, I suppose so.”  I tell him, unsure of how much information this little boy really needed.

“I think that would make Daddy really happy.”  He says.  “Trish never made Daddy laugh like you do.  She never played with me either.”  And I couldn’t help but laugh at his sulking face, only, at the same time, I felt sorry for the little guy.

“Tell you what.  I’ll always be around for you if you need to play with someone, deal?”  And he sits up and wraps his short little arms around my neck tightly.

“I love you, Mommy.”  He says.

“I love you too, little man.”  I told him as I lay him back down and kiss him on his forehead again. 

Making sure he was tucked in and everything was in order, I walked out of his room faster than a bolt of lightning, not wanting for him to see the tears that had welled up in my eyes.  As I flew out of Aiden’s room, an arm grabbed mine and I found myself staring in to a pool of watery green eyes.  He pulled me into his room quickly, shut the door behind us and held me tightly without saying a word as I let out the surge of emotion I had let accumulate in the last few minutes I had spent with Aiden.  When I began to calm, he held my face in his palms and brushed the tears away from my cheeks.

“We’re not just best friends anymore, are we?”  He says, smiling that sweet smile of his that melted all my troubles away.  I shook my head.

“No.”  I started.  “No, we’re not Christian.  God!  How do I say this?”  I spoke the last to myself.

“I love you too, Mia.”  He tells me.

“You heard?”  I asked him, my eyes wide in surprise.  He nodded and just when I thought a smile couldn’t get any wider, his did.

“Everything.  I can’t believe my four year old son knew about you loving me before I did.”  He says and I caught on to his teasing inflections.